We ended last month with the vet by making a vet appointment for our eldest dog Champ, who has a tumor growing on his balls. One day we saw blood come out of his penis so we wanted to make sure he was in no pain. because of his very old age of 11 almost 12 we knew when it started growing we were not going to get it removed or fight the cancer because of his age and life expectancy which he already has gone past happily! I took him to the appointment without leon (he could not come, was at work) i of course called him, kept him in the loop through-out the appointment & he was very emotional. emotional because the vet did a test, verified it was cancerous and most likely through-out his entire body which was spreading fast. (mass cell tumor) of course we kind of knew this, but hearing it makes it more real. the vet gave us a rough timeline that we may have with him of “6 to 8 months”. she prescribed champ some pain medication as well as some antibiotics for the tumor which was growing very fast at this point. she said the tumor would leak daily as it grew (because it is never going to “heal” or scab up) and to make him comfy etc. leon immediately had a new rule of letting champ and the dogs on the couch so he could cuddle with them more lol. he gave champ so many treats at first that he got a little constipated but we fixed the issue! haha so as for now we are enjoying him and his amazing personality until he shows us he is not okay :)
on the 3rd i went to Arts Beats & Eats with my mom, step dad, sister, and her bf! My mom had some tickets and i got some free tickets from me and leons friends Jaimie & Eric – it was my first time going to this event and i liked it very much. i was more into the art and going through the handmade items for sale rather than the food, but we did have some good lunch. mom wasn’t too into the “sampling” lol which is the whole idea haha. the different cultures of dancing was really fun to see and how all the stages were divided by genre was wonderful & easy to navigate! i for sure want to go next year with leon and probably our friends! i with my family had a great time this year and i got a new pair of sun glasses :) so future years look bright ;) haha! it was a beautiful warmmm day & everyone was a in a great mood! can’t ask for anything better? right?
as for health my rash is starting to really go away now! it isn’t really on my face anymore but mostly my chest and stomach. i went backkkkkk to the dr and now he says it is eczema?! …not poison ivy. oy! idk. THEN my tooth started hurting last weekend and OH MY LANTA! saturday i had a seizure then by night my tooth it was hurting – i realized a chunk had broken off and thenerve was exposed! but i took asprin and went to sleep, woke up for church with my philly on sunday , we didnt even make it to the start of mass and we had to rush out of there to URGENT care so i could get some pain medication! i was a mess! because it was sunday no dentist was open and i had to wait an additional 24 hours to have someone really take a look at it! monday i saw the dentist and he said i have to wait 2 WEEKS taking antibiotics incase there is an infection! So i am on pain meds feelings loopy and sleeping lots etc. yay. lol right now i am sitting at a campsite in Pinckney MI – Hell Survivors a paintball event. lol oy! paintballllll of course! getting warmed up for these tournaments to win for World Cup 2017! lol
WEDDINGS! lol butttt before i get to all the wedding fun maddness lets back up a tad to some craziness! After our trip to Indiana (which we took first place!) I came home with a crazy rash that was spreading all over from my face to my chest! I quickly got to the doctors in which he declared I had poison Ivy! after he gave me some meds and told me to keep not itching, the rash kept spreading all over my face, to my arms, to my stomach, and more on my chest! of course i went back to the doctors! he said to be patient and wait for the “poison ivy” to go away! and it was SO ITCHY! oy! unfortunately it looked as though i was going to have this crap on my face for awhile so it was going to be all over for Zack’s wedding (leons cousin) & to Eric’s wedding (our friend)! OH & —SIDE SALAD— while I was in Indiana last week I found my FIRST painted rock!!! I am pumped to find more and have plans to paint my own and epilepsy awareness rocks!
Alrighty, so last week friday we went up north Michigan to Gaylord for his cousin’s wedding for the day, i wore my green dress and it was a beautiful August day for a wedding! they had a wonderful ceremony and reception! we had a great time! his family is a hoot at gatherings, let me tell youuuuu! lol sadly we had to leave earlier than most because we had to get home to our pups with Dad as no one was home to care for them =/ but I am glad we made the trip to go! after that the weekend was filled with the start of FANTASY FOOTBALL! leons leagues got together at places to make up their teams as i did some simming XD lmao. terrible!
this past week came eric & jaimie’s wedding fun! because we went to Zacks wedding I missed Jaimie’s bachelorette party, butttt we got together for their wedding rehersal, the guys had their verry berry memorable bachelor party! the day before yesturday ( the wedding) us girls got together to get our nails done then all of us went out to a Ted Nugent concert lol. random but thats what they love haha! Yesturday was their wedding! they had an outdoor wedding by a creek under a gazeebo immediately following with the reception where we gabbed and danced all night ♥
since my grandma’s injury and surgery i had been keeping busy with caring for her AS MUCH as i can! she has such a hard time dressing herself, showering, and getting normal things done.. such as writing out checks for her bills! i have been trying to go over her house as much as possible! not only me but a lot of my family has been stoping by, she is also VERY bored! she cannot drive, get out etc so we are trying to keep her company & happy as well as comfortable. i set up a puzzle on her table she can work on over time because she can only use one arm right now. other than with her, while i am home i have been playing a lot of sims (which i STILL have TWO and wanting 4 to keep my mind busy, or i have abby over to put a smile on my face, which of course is a given! haha! so, after my grandma’s surgery she started having a nurse come over and care for her, so the need for me to come over has been a bit less as she regains her independence through rehab. i am happy about this but i feel like i have fallen into a bit of a .. depression. just a little meh everything is hitting me because i was being so strong for so long kinda thing. but i will be a-o-kay :) happy things like family and friends pull me out of it everytime. i was keeping busy as time went on, as july turned into August – all of a sudden time didn’t stand still any longer because of her injury as family canoeing trips happened, friend trips to the zoo took place, paintball trips to Indiana planned, & with family & friend wedding plans ahead! time is fleating once again…
the first weekend of August held our annual Tysar Canoe trip (leaving behind a family member to check on gma of course) which came with a FIRST, the little kids came along! memories to last a lifetime, pictures we will cherish forever, & many more years of fun ahead! Next weekend will hold me and leons FIRST TRIP OUT OF STATE TOGETHER! haha he has a paintball tournament in Indiana, and if they win it will help them get a playing spot in the World Cup Tournament in Florida next November! (info to come in later posts!) I am excited to go to Indiana!
Seizures? My focus on grandma has been so strong the stress didnt effect me? or so thats what i am going with? i dont know, i was totally fine! i tried my absolute best to take care of me reguarding sleep and eating – as for now, everything is feeling a tad wonky but no seizures just yet. i dont really wanna say anything because i dont want leon to miss the indiana trip or me miss the indiana trip… very childish behavior at 30 I KNOW but it is so hard to not want to enjoy life when really you DONT KNOW what could happen, to stay home and nothing happens when you could be out SUCKS. it SUCKS. blah!
grat·i·tude – the quality of being thankful; readiness to show appreciation for and to return kindness. :) I am feeling very greatful today as i got my letter of acceptance for disability in the mail ♥ as many of you follow my blog and public Epilepsy Fight Facebook Page, i do not work/drive, and have been fighting for disability since 2009! A recap on the story ;; in 2009 i applied, was denied & accepted the answer and went out to try working with my disorder again. after two jobs & many issues they both let me go because of the disorder problems, i tried. i applied again in 2012 and was denied 3 times over the years, but re applied with a laywer each time and went to court two times. today, may 9th 2017, i was finally NOT denied. i will not be getting all the years back pay and have agreed to it, i do not want to fight for the back pay and look greedy, i have so much gratitude for the monthly payment i will not be receiving! #GodIsGood
also giving me smiles, I’ve been spending a lot of time with Abby Marie the past few weeks, she has really been enjoying coming over my house and playing with me. We have a lot of fun together and our little routine’s with crafts, nail painting, snuggling, bubble baths, cleaning (she loves it i promise lol), and just plain goofing off haha. she is my silly nilly and i love her lots and lots. she has grown so fast! i cannot believe she will be turning FOUR this month! so crazy! I love you so much little lady!!!
recently we went back to the gymnasics place that we celebrated last November Kaitlyn’s 7th birthday to now celebrate Jacob’s 3rd Birthday!! :) everyone had a really great time again with a spiderman theme! i love this place as everything is really organized etc. i am so0o0o going to bring my future kiddo’s here for fun and parties! this party for jacob me and leon brought abby! she had a blast! and is still talking about it! lol next month is my sister stephanie’s birthday :)
we had ANOTHER special birthday this month! DOZER BOY! lol doggie boxer birthday! our cutie patootie turned 5 years old this year! we cannot believe how fast and big he has grown over time! he is still our big puppy boy and oh he acts like a puppy still haha. for his dad we took him for a car ride and to the pet store. we love our fur babies so much! (more about them here)
EPILEPSY WARRIORNESS: i had a crazyyy seizure in my sleep that left me so0o sore and tired and for some reason i thought it was a “good idea” to go to frenkenmuth with my mom and grandma. i slept the whole way there and the whole way back. wasnt able to enjoy convos or the food. it was horrible! i hateeee epilepsy struggle days like this!! but i was a warrior and made it through! so that alone, even though my muscles hurt and my brain is still foggy, the day is gone & the seizure is done. I MADE IT! WARRIOR!!
this week i had catechism scheduled as planned and was FINALLY able to see my kiddo’s for the first time since before christmas!!! reason being ;; there was no classes for christmas break .. once new years was over there was like TWO SNOW DAYS and a family day before i left for florida so i didnt get to see my students then either. THEN i went to florida and took off a tuesday to be with leon after which brings me to this week in FEBRUARY where i finally was able to see them! it was a lot of fun. we colored and enjoyed talking about our holidays etc etc while also trying my best to catch up on everything we lost! yikes! other than that loveliness i had 2 small seizures in the morning and luckily leon was canvased out of work that day to take care of me! i of course am feeling much better and rested all week. this weekend me and leon are also going to keep it calm. as of right now we have no valentines day plans for next week, like it matters we totally love the crap out of each other! do you all have any special vday plans for this up coming tuesday?
PS: happy 3rd birthday to my 2nd cousin jacob!!
FLORIDA WAS AMAZING! we started off with anxiety lol and my dad had me use a wheelchair in the detroit airport haha, he is a goof and loves me so much and worries about me. but the flight was fine, i didnt have any seizure episodes on the flight there or back or any episodes while i was on the vacation at all! i was even able to have a glass of wine or two while i was out :) it was splendid. i didddddddd get drunky cassie on accident but shhh cause im confident i kept it under wraps lmao. okay so basically we went from airport to resort in naples and didnt leave the resort once until it was time to leave lmao. we had an awesome room, and in my favorite color right off the beach. we enjoyed the pool & beach and tanning together and loved going out to breakfast each morning with a lot of good laughs & eating my new FAVORITE: eggs benedict. the weather in naples florida was beautiful and warm while the air smelled wonderful. the sand was clean and packable – i really liked the feeling of it lol. i loved looking for shells, me and my dad picked out a couple together for me to take home and i even found a SAND DOLLAR! unforunately it didnt make it back safely in the trip back home and broke, sad but it had the “5 doves” inside. the only souviener my dad let me take home was my memories and pictures lmao. frugal guy but i wouldnt have it any other way! the trip was amazing! bon fires on the beach, walks on the ocean, sunsets, pizza partys in the hotel rooms, drinks in the hot tub, wine served to you on the beach ♥ a VERY PRICEY heaven lol.
oh my lordy have i been busy busy and have been getting ready for my trip to florida tomorrow morning, which i am so0o0o pumped for! leon had Monday, Martin Luthar King day off and was able to come home tuesday, which was awesome to spend extra time with him before my trip xoxo. because of the trip stress i did have a small seizure on tuesday at some point but i have been trying to stay positive and after i was feeling better this past week we have been going to the gym again (yay) and i have been counting my calories which i have been liking. we also went back and renewed my medical marijuana card because of the laws etc and its not given at a regular pharmacy in this day n age yet. saturday i got my nails and wax done, making me feel all sassy for the trip and monday we got some last stop shopping done for things i would need for the trip! $55.00 on crap pretty much lol. then tonight i had family night at catechism and leon helped me pack :) i leave tomorrow for the airport in the morning with leon and my dad ♥ wish me luck with NO SEIZURES on the airplane andddd on the trip! Anxiety is high but prayers!
PS: Happy Birthday to my baby boy Efferson Emanuel!!!
hello hello to drama =/ of course this blog is public so i dont like to air dirty laundry (lame for the readers i know but… it just isnt even good enough for a private post, promise the good ones will have those! lol) howeverrrr there was some tears dropped and words spoke with a relative. both parties needing to talk it out more so we shall see. i will say my grandma has been a wonderful and helpful support in keeping me calm and understanding about everything. best frand she is ♥ ♥ ♥
epilepsy: blahhhhh i was home alone and i guess i was emotional and had an episode that made me fall, possibly grabbing the cat tree down with me which in turn hit our living room window and broke it! yikes! sidesalad: it is okay as we are getting new doors & windows this year anywhichway — BUT back to the story, i fell and i guess everyone couldnt get a hold of me, the dogs were going crazy, and leons dad came over to check on me and found me on the ground with the cat tree on me with glass everywhere! scary but i guess after some time of coming back to alertness i was okay. sore, but okay. :) #epilepsywarrior!
as for random happenings TRUMP IS PRESIDENT lol. Happy Birthday tooooo my Step Dad Dennis! love you! andddd we did game night with linds and steve at our house, MONOPOLY! hahah which has been fun hanging out with the two of them again yes yes! and we also did some #tysartime over michelle and jeffs for some furtah christmas! our last gift openings! (well for the kiddos lol) other than that we have been trying to start a new year normal. leon work mon-thurs. counseling mon, catechism tues, & grandmas on wed’s :) so far so good except catechism was canceled this week to a snow day! other than that i have taken another its a new year facebook leave lol for a week or two im sure .. we shall see. until then i usually go nuts on instagram and recently i am a snapchat fan! whoa nelly!
the cold and snow has shown up! i can’t say i LOVE it but i can’t imagine it any other way ♥ haha so we went from the dogs sleeping at the bottom of the bed and fans blowing at night to the fur babies cuddling with us non-stop and me and leon keeping cozy under blankets and walking around the house in our slippers. lol. i love when season’s change. neither of us thankfully have gotten sick really. i was having a hard time earing out of my ears for almost two months (was getting worried) but it was the weather change and they are getting back to normal. also on the health front. i just recently hit a new “milestone” of sorts, my newest longest amount of days ive gone seizure free in yearssssssss is 46 days! very pleased! yay for CBD oils!
onward with holiday happenings! the tree is up, decorated and the shopping has begun! hahah leon and i have gone out and did out christmas shopping here and there for everyone and each other – so we know what we are getting for eachother this year. very anti climactic =/ i dont think we will be doing it again. yeah leon got a tablet (what he wanted) and i got to pick out some things i would have gotten if i shopped on my own … but thats not christmas. it was so not good feeling wrapping my own present for the first time this year. so i say nooooo to this idea in the future again. HOWEVER christmas will be perfect as usual because it is with my love. christmas plans are as follows: christmas eve in the evening we go over to leons aunts house, do dinner & gifts, stay out past midnight having fun! christmas morning we wake (sleep in on xmas for first time in our 6 years together lol) up & do gifts/breakfast then later go over to my aunts house for dinner & gifts etc. then late in the evening we go over to steve’s for the 2nd annual poker game. thennnnn maybe a day or two later (date unknown) we will go out to dinner with the cardillos. for new years eve? POSSIBLY caseville which im really hoping for but who knows… what are you all doing for christmas? what about new years eve? any big plans or traditions?
sidesalad: i am going to Florida for my brothers wedding for sure now. i went out and bought shoes and a dress already i just need to get it altered a bit and send it out with my dads suit to the hotel (not traveling with it)!! so much fun! the more me and dad/anthony/or saba talk about it the more and more excited i get. i look on the resort site and they have so many attractions, auto museums that my dad would love, animal rehabilitation centers with nature trails and my dad would love that haha, oh and a cruise at sunset to watch the dolphins for $40 an adult! i mean oh my lanta!!!! sign me up!
I’m 30! my birthday was tuesday and a normal day it was :) i had so much birthdayness all month a normal birthday was PERFECT! i relaxed all day and then had catechism with my little kiddo’s ♥ once i came home leon had a birthday card and made me dinner xoxox
this past weekend has been a lot of fun!!! it was another #TYSARTIME weekend! my uncle jay got some time off from work and was about to fly up to michigan from florida to visit! we always try to make the most of it as we can when he comes in because we love and miss him so much! on friday the whole family got together and went to this hidden gem auto museum that is not open the time! Stahl’s is a collection filled with cars, signs, music machines, memorbilia, etc! the family broke apart and enjoyed the place a lot. leon really enjoyed it as it reminded him a lot of his late grandpa with all the old antique cars! me and leon plan on bringing our dads back in june for fathers day! :) after the auto museum we all went to lunch together & then met up againnnn on sunday for christmas cooking making! ironically it ended up being december 4th which is national cooking making day! haha so we celebrated by making tons and tons and tons of cookies! we made (my favorite of course) tripple batch of peanut butter kiss cookies, sugar cookies (some frosted), white chocolate macedemia nut, chocolate chip w/almonds & coconut, chocolate chip, lemon squares, cherry nut squares, & powdered date nut balls!!!!!! i have them ALL in my freezer. typing it all out it’s a lot lmao. and shockingly on wednesday i am going back over to my grandma’s house with my mom to make 2 more desserts and another batch of kiss cookies to use up the rest of the chocolate kisses my grandma has unwrapped hahahaha! so we have been getting into the spirit of christmas for sure!! as you all prepare for the joy of Christmas, what traditions does your family have? Is it attending a special Christmas liturgy each year? Is it enjoying a delicious stolen or coffee cake baked from your grandmother’s recipe?
future fun !!!! wedding at the end of january next month in Naples Florida! i am beyond excited and beyond getting anxious and scared lol. i have not flown since i went to italy in 7th grade before 9/11.. so that’s kinda eh. my seizure’s have been good and under control, i haven’t had any major seizures for 36 days today! yay! but i dont know where i will be then, idk. just need to stay calm. ahhhhh. calllmmm. BUT OMG YAY FLORIDA! ♥ i am SO SO SO excited! all i need to do is buy a dress or two! so i need to head over to bibbidy bobbidy boo boutiqe asap! haha
& now sad news: my computer has been giving me problems again :( remember when i spilled the koolaid all over it? obviously it was an answered prayer that it turned back on and all my files/apps are workable etc yay but it just isn’t the same. so i had to save all my files and do a reboot – i am still missing a lot of my old favorites rawr!
100% my brain right now <3 AS HAPPY AS HAPPY CAN BE!!!
happy happy! feeling amazing, happy, and FILLED with gratitude! ♥ today i am 31 DAYS SEIZURE FREE!!!!!! #CBDforEpilepsy #epilepsywarrior #seizurefree #epilepsyawareness #epilepsyawarenessmonth this has been the most special November! I of course always love my birthday month, but such a blessing to be seizure free during my favorite time of year! i am of course hoping this good health pours over from November to December/Christmas! I am so grateful to be this clear minded and healthy right now, but i want more! the desire to be seizure free for a year or two is SO GREAT! (prayer: dear Lord, please lay your hands upon me and hold me in your arms as epilepsy is in my life. thank you lord for watching over me today and everyday! please comfort those who also fight this battle along side me as each year at least 200,000 people are diagnosed! epilepsy is big, but you are bigger! amen!)
Happy belated Thanksgiving! leon and i had a good time over my aunts watching the game, spending time with family etc. i was even able to help my aunt out getting dinner ready ♥ after we went to his grandma’s to see his side so it was a nice day! normally each year after family time on thanksgiving, late into the night we have all our friends over for a poker game! this year would have been year 5 but leon planned on working TRIPPLE TIME on black friday! so we didn’t get a game going. steve says a poker game is going to happen at his house this christmas, so we shall see! yesturday leon worked the tripple time and i went to my cousin kaitlyns 7th birthday. she had the party at a gymnastics place which was super cool because we all got to play with the kids! i took tonssss of pictures haha she is ADORABLE! i even really personalized her birthday card this year with pictures haha.
after kaitlyns party my mom and me headed out to lunch then she had planned for us to go to Painting With A Twist! we went to the class and when i walked in i was soooo surprised to find out all the ladies in my family were there to paint with me and make memories for my birthday! it was so much fun! and i was SO surprised when i walked in my eyes got a little teary lol. after painting we all went over to my aunt and uncles house for pizza, cake, presents, and an AWESOME game of spoons! i left litterallty feeling just as special as kaitlyn did earlier that day! ♥#29daysofCassie♥ today i am home cooking and stuff for leon and the guys who are watching football (big michgan vs ohio game today!) … and in it all i am STILL feeling fantastic with no seizures!!!!
Aunt Cindy’s surprise 60th was a ton of fun! we all surprised her by showing up the a restaurant out in saint clair shores, enjoyed an awesome dinner together, and had her open up gifts! i was even able to get everyone together for a big group picture! (not often or easy lol)
tomorrow thanksgiving! i can’t believe time is flying that fast! always say that but it feels just like that, fleeting! but since its thanksgiving week i dont have catechism as the kids are on break! instead me and grandma hung out this week prepping pies, side dishes etc for thanksgiving and getting her house cleaned up so she could have company over! tomorrow’s plans are to celebrate turkey day at my aunt and uncles house then stop at his grandma’s after for desert! black friday i am going to my little cousins birthday party then out with my mom for my birthday! :) ahhhhhhhhhhh just feeling fantastic lately, no seizures in 26 days! =O
hmm where to start? well sunday me and my gma went to church, breakfast, checked out the new flag they put up in the New Baltimore Park, and then we headed out shopping for a little while having fun together :) love days like that with her! the week went as normal consisting of my weekly monday counceling sessions and my weekly tuesday night catechism etc but then WOW! without saying much there has been some drama/stress close by in my life which resulted in a lot of seizures! tuesday night seizure, wednesday seizures, thursday seizures, and a small seizure yesturday, friday! it was quite the hurdle of feeling like CRAP and sleeping etc. since i wasn’t doing so well i rested the whole week as much as i could, i think the only time i left the house was to go with leon yesturday to the doctors haha. today i haven’t had any seizure activity and the michigan game is on. so im about to sleep more as he watches it haha. and im pretty sure MORE football tomorrow i think but we might go over to derak and heathers, idk yet, depends on how i am feeling. then Monday is HALLOWEEEEEEEN!
USA! this year is an election year and the debates between trump and hillary have been going on… now I am not one to post, blog, or comment on anything political & I try to stay out of this on social media and I keep my feelings to myself; however I cant stay completely quiet any longer. We have one candidate running on a slogan “make america great again” and another saying that we are already “good” then we have the media slinging everything they can to fire us up and keep us on their agenda. Then we are joining in slamming each candidate on social media constantly and making arguments about what this one did is so bad/illegal while ignoring what bad/illegal things the other has done. What we are doing as Americans is we are dividing the lines even deeper so we have no hope of being “good” or “great again”. We chose these two individuals as our running mates by either voting for them in the primaries or not voting at all. So my advice is stop letting the media and the mud slinging impact your decision start finding a way to make a difference in your daily life and the life’s of those around you. America was built on the shoulders of leaders not followers, get out there and lead and stop following this crap like mindless cattle. If we all just do that then America will not only be good it will be great. Neither candidate nor Media Outlet has an agenda to unite us as Americans, everything about this race has done nothing but divide us more as a country. I have decided that i am going to use my vote next month not for either candidate but for a third party nomination vote. I dont want to one day look back and be asked by my children who i voted for and tell them i did not vote as well as be a part of this “mess”.
Other than political bullshit I am doing MUCH BETTER! my last post was so sad, but i think thats what blogging is for, to help me get things out, look back, review, move forward and live life in #gratitude ♥ so happy to have cassiedotcom.com :) lol of course. with each passing year i am growing. and i feel it, i know it. in 2012 i wanted to give up and entered myself into a phyciatric (sp?) hospital, and since then i have only been climbing the stairs of greatness. i am super proud of myself. sometimes you feel like you are the only one having a hard time, but we all are. we are constant works in progress, preparing ourselves for eternity in the kingdom of God! Amen! I had counseling last night and she was so reassuring of my wednesday cry fest, how all the feelings i was having i turned each of them around into i feel icky about this, so im going to fix it this way! yay for therapy! lol. so health wise i am back to me and working on my fabulousness with THREE DAYS SEIZURE free under my belt! because EVERY victory matters!
HELLO EMOTIONAL CASSIE~! i haven’t been depressed or had a crying over nothing day in sooooooo long so it really caught me off guard this past week. since my friend passing away from SUDEP and her sister deleting her fb page (which im not a fan of) then me having a major seizure and being in the hospital … i have been really up and down i suppose. most days i like to consider myself to be positive as i am living my life in gratitude but feeling down has really crept up on me. of course having the coping tools from couceling has been extremely helpful! okay lets re-cap what happened. i haven’t been to counceling for two weeks (going tomorrow and cannot wait to unload) and have been sleeping A LOT so i feel like ive been falling back into my bad pattern which is NOT helpful for the brain. on tuesday was my second day of catechism, which i enjoyed my 1.5hr with my student and had a lot of fun, smiles the whole time. but on wednesday i woke up just on the WRONG SIDE of the bed or something immediatly sad and crying all by myself. talked to grandma, my dad, tried to spend some time out in nature to make myself feel better but i would cry over the silliest things (now that i think about it all) and was feeling bad about everything and nothing all at the same time. THEN the church called me and needed me to sub for their first grade class. i felt obligated and said yes when really the way i was feeling i should have said no. that night i took on 15 first graders and OH MY LANTA was it something i was no mentally ready for. i left there wanting to cry more lol. but i made it. once i was home leon made everything better, of course because he is my ROCK. thursday we went to the gym but didnt go again since because i had another seizure saturday morning :( and then slept most of today away. hopefully this week will be A LOT BETTER!!!!
WHOA have things been crazy this past week! last tuesday i had catechism class (as i posted about) and the day went by fine and i came home and leon bought pizza then we hung out for a bit and went to bed. i suppose some time in the middle of the night i got up sleep walking or something and had a seizure, falling and hitting my head on our entertainment center! THANKFULLY leon woke up and heard the noise and came to care for me. i guess it took him a while to get me to the hospital but eventually he got me there around 4am and they checked me over for my skull and head injuries etc because i hit my head. they had me stay at the hospital, and even though leon took work off for wednesday because of all of it, he had not gotten any sleep all night so he called my mom and grandma and went home for some sleep. i woke up the next day with them by my side and a text from leon that made me very emotional because of how much he goes through. he is my rock! after some time i was feeling better and they let me go home later wednesday night. even though they let me go home i was still kinda loopy and groggy for a few days and needed lots of sleep so thats what i did. thursday leon had to work so i went over my grandma’s and slept there and she made dinner for me and leon because she is a sweetheart <3 she is my best friend i love her so much!!!
Everything else has been so hazy and i dont remember some days. i know we went out to breakfast one day with leons dad, and grocery shopping one day lol but mostly ive been sleeping a lot. i doooooo remember yesturday (saturday) as we stayed home again for some football but leon had the guys over and i had my second pearl party online! i ended up getting my goal for my free setting. SO i ended up opening a SECOND oyster! the first oyster i opened was a dark and the second was a pretty pink ♥ both 7.5 in size. i am having the dark in a bracelet and the pink in a ring :) yay lol so we shall see when they come.
i have a lot of different things that don’t connect together to blog about so i will be hopping all around in this entry, lol sorry… Today my late Grandpa would have been 89 years old! Happy Birthday Grandpa Tysar!!! We are all always thinking of you & missing you at each family event! rest in paradise until we meet again in the kingdom of God xoxo ♥ My grandfather has been gone now since 2001 but his memory is still so fresh, and that’s what i love, all good amazing memories! i love you for all eternity Grandpa, we all do!
this week has been National Suicide Prevention Week, which is the Monday through Sunday surrounding World Suicide Prevention Day, September 10th. each year (for the past 7 years) i have been participating in TWLOHA — which is To Write Love on Her Arms, a non-profit movement dedicated to presenting hope and finding help for people struggling with depression, addiction, self-injury, and suicide. TWLOHA exists to encourage, inform, inspire, and also to invest directly into treatment and recovery.
Recently online I have been getting into watching these live pearl parties on facebook by Vantel Pearls .. it is so addicting lol. let me explain: At a Pearl Party, they bring the oysters to us! In their amazing jewelry catalog you choose a setting you would like your pearl to be in .. but what will your pearl be?? Will your pearl be a classic white, peach, black, or other exotic colors?!?!? At the party the co-host will be opening an oyster of your choice via live facebook video feed! Each oyster contains a beautiful, genuine Pearl (cultured)! When your oyster is opened and the Pearl is discovered, excitement sweeps through the Party as we all find out the color, size, or… TWINS!?! its like gambling for pearls hahah!!!! ♥ After your amazing pearl is opened it can then be mounted into a ring, necklace or any one of their many beautiful jewelry designs! You can check out their catalog here! i have been getting so into that i am actually hosting a party next weekend saturday! lol so go to my event and check it out!!
sunday leon and i went out to heather and deraks for some football watchingg since the tysar picnic got canceled due to the weather. of course during that time me and heather talked the whole time and i got her into my pearl obsession lmao. but onto the regular health update…. i made it an amazingggggg 42 days with no grandmal’s and feel 100% blessed and grateful! now onto doing it again! :) with that said i of course had an episode.. on monday i had counceling and i was feeling a bit down maybe? idk but that night i had a grandmal seizure in my sleep. leon said it wasn’t too long but only one. moving forward with a positive mind!
this past weekend was labor day weekend! cannot believe the end of summer is pretty much almost here!!! it is still really hot & the michigan weather is lovely but the ‘oh my time is flying by’ feeling is coming again as another season just flew past! it was a short summer! but lots to look forward to always so not sad lol, this fall i get to start catechism again at the end of this month! yay! so i will not be sleeping this september (lmao wake me up when september ends duh).
anyyyyyyyways for labor day celebrations on Sunday the Tysar family all went out to Harsen’s island again and spent time together :) it was of course lots of good food and good laughs! leon was able to come and didn’t have work or anything and it was his first time seeing my aunt and uncles house on the island so that was fun. right when we got there i had a dumb cassie moment and fell down the stairs of the front porch and got a nasty bruise/mark on my ankle. oh man. cassie cassie cassie. haha. later in the afternoon some of us went out on my uncles boat for two hours around the island which was a lottttt of fun! once we got back we played lots of cards and headed home. on monday, labor day, me and leon headed to the New Baltimore park just the two of us for a little date. we packed up a picnic lunch and everything we needed, and went to the beach ♥ we did very little swimming haha but we ate and cuddled and napped in the sun. as time went by his cousin stopped by, we ended up seeing three of our high school classmates, and then an ice cream parlor later we ended the day :)
as for my silly little health updates, my late blog was about my fabulous celebration of being one moth seizure free, and im still NO GRAND MAL SEIZURES but yesturday i spent the day with my grandma, was kinda sleepy for the day, went to sleep and in the evening i ended up (so leon said) waking up sleeping walking and waking up stareing off so having an absence seizure or two. hoping i still go longer and the CBDoils keep me on the right track but at the same i know its not magic. #epilepsywarrior #gratitude
ONE MONTH SEIZURE FREE
i of course needed to stop and take a moment to blog and celebrate with the world that i am one month seizure free! thirty one amazing days with no major grandmal seizures! i am so blessed as this hasn’t happened in so long! today me and leon are celebrating with a little bit of cheesecake and strawberries together and i will be continueing with no more seizures! :) i am a warrior and i choose not to suffer epilepsy, i battle epilepsy! ♥ please go to my epilepsy page!
random sidesalad: today is my dads birthday! happy birthday to my fabulous dad!