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Naples Florida

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IMG_0519FLORIDA WAS AMAZING! we started off with anxiety lol and my dad had me use a wheelchair in the detroit airport haha, he is a goof and loves me so much and worries about me. but the flight was fine, i didnt have any seizure episodes on the flightIMG_0590 there or back or any episodes while i was on the vacation at all! i was even able to have a glass of wine or two while i was out :) it was splendid. i didddddddd get drunky cassie on accident but shhh cause im confident i kept it under wraps lmao. okay so basically we went from airport to resort in naples and didnt leave the resort once until it was time to leave lmao. we had an awesome room, and in my favorite color right off the beach. we enjoyed the pool & beach and tanning together and loved going out to breakfast each morning with a lot of 20170126_094037good laughs & eating my new FAVORITE: eggs benedict. the weather in naples florida was beautiful and warm while the air smelled wonderful. the sand was clean and packable – i really liked the feeling of it lol. i loved looking for shells, me and my IMG_20170126_103813dad picked out a couple together for me to take home and i even found a SAND DOLLAR! unforunately it didnt make it back safely in the trip back home and broke, sad but it had the “5 doves” inside. the only souviener my dad let me take home was my memories and pictures lmao. frugal guy but i wouldnt have it any other way! the trip was amazing! bon fires on the beach, walks on the ocean, sunsets, pizza partys in the hotel rooms, drinks in the hot tub, wine served to you on the beach ♥ a VERY PRICEY heaven lol.

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Tomorrow’s Destination

oh my lordy have i been busy busy and have been getting ready for my trip to florida tomorrow morning, which i am so0o0o pumped for! leon had Monday, Martin Luthar King day off and was able to come home tuesday, which was awesome to spend extra time with him before my trip xoxo.  because of the trip stress i did have a small seizure on tuesday aIMG_20170121_153950_603t some point but i have been trying to stay positive and after i was feeling better this past week we have been going to the gym again (yay) and i have been counting my calories which i have been liking. we also went back and renewed my medical marijuana card because of the laws etc and its not given at a regular pharmacy in this day n age yet. saturday i got my nails and wax done, making me feel all sassy for the trip and monday we got some last stop shopping done for things i would need for the trip! $55.00 on crap pretty much lol. then tonight i had family night at catechism and leon helped me pack :) i leave tomorrow for the airport in the morning with leon and my dad ♥ wish me luck with NO SEIZURES on the airplane andddd on the trip! Anxiety is high but prayers!

PS: Happy Birthday to my baby boy Efferson Emanuel!!!

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Midnight Came

leon has had this week off so it has been nice spending it with him a we ring in the new year of 2017 ♥ we havent done any fighting etc he just starts getting bored towards the end of his vacations lol. so during this vacation i ended up getting a little sick, not bad, just a sore throat. i went to the dr’s so he checked on it and i also talked to him about TMJ from biteing down during seizures etc. nothing really came of it, it still hurts sometimes =/ on FRIDAY we all went over to the “eastpointe estate” lol to celebrate her birthday :) happy birthday heather!!!! i got her an alex an ani that donated to the american heart foundation. IMG_20161226_035945_752 then saturday was new years eve! we all headed over to steve’s and went CRAZY in the food department! lol we are all nuts. so we had lots of fun all night of course and midnight came too soon lol. we all stayed the night and did breakfast the next morning with left overs lol. THENNNNN because everyone was too drunk to play any board games new years eve lol steve n linds came over new years day for game night haha.

yesturday night we headed over to my brothers house to celebrate my sister angela’s birthday! it was nice getting together and we were able to exchange xmas gifts <3 after it all last night i ended up having a seizure in my sleep =/ today i am doing okay just relaxing and resting more after all the christmass and partying madness lol. today leon went back to work so now its time to get back to a sense of normal. get all the xmas decor outta the house, clean up, and the routine back in action lol. only one more xmas adventure left this up coming weekend with the tysars to see the furtahs :)

IMG_20161225_101128_466random, my vantel pearls finally showed up! so annoying lol. never going to get into that crap again lol. they got me hook line and sinker! in random sad news: facebook live is fairly new: some girl in the USA commited suicide live online :'( WOW – WTF

& a sidesalad: no catechism this week still, winter break! haven’t seen them since before xmas!

Christmas 2016

another christmas in the books! plans that were made changed a little bit but mostly went through. IMG_20161224_212351_371christmas eve leon and i relaxed then went to his aunts at 1pm and enjoyed a lot of fun with the family until about 9pm. we played new games, i won a round of LCR, and we got goofy funny white elephant gifts. the fun seems to of course be spending time together, but watching the little ones grow and enjoy being young together :) it is fun to watch, to talk and laugh about etc. it makes christmas just that much more special when little ones are around i think. sooooo after we left his aunts we went home to wait for santa! not really, like i said in my last post, we know everything we got, and i wrapped the gifts, even the ones i got haha. (anti climactic.) so, lol really we went home, i cleaned a little, and he passed out on the couch. i put all the gifts under the tree and went to bed.

Christmas morning leon and i slept in! which i NEVER so on christmas lol. we opened our gifts one by one even knowing what they all were then made breakfast and relaxed. once we got ready to go over my aunts house we stopped by leons parents house for a little while to visit and see what abby got from santa :) IMG_20161225_180802_047my aunts house was fun! this year some people who normally visit, visited other sides of their families (its so hard to choose and make everyone happy! especialy with kiddos!) so the TYSAR clan was a lot smaller this year. after my aunts we all headed over to steve’s house for his annual POKER GAME! IMG_20161226_025000_257 even tho we ended up playing black jack haha. steve and linds announced they are back together (OMG YAY) and we stayed the night! which followed the next day sleeping in, breakfast made by the couple lol. once me and leon got home the next day we PASSED OUT! lol for like three days now haha! christmas was amazing as usual!

Cookie Craziness

15181436_10154739413019591_1301330745291909673_nI’m 30! my birthday was tuesday and a normal day it was :) i had so much birthdayness all month a normal birthday was PERFECT! i relaxed all day and then had catechism with my little kiddo’s ♥ once i came home leon had a birthday card and made me dinner xoxox

this past weekend has been a lot of fun!!! it was another #TYSARTIME weekend! my uncle jay got some time off from work and was about to fly up to michigan from florida to visit! we always try to make the most of it as we can when he comes in because we love and miss him so much!  on friday the whole family got together and went to this hidden gem auto museum that is not open the time! Stahl’s is a collection filled with cars, signs, music machines, memorbilia, etc! the family broke apart and enjoyed the place a lot. leon really enjoyed it as it reminded him a lot of his late grandpa with all the old antique cars! me and leon plan on bringing our dads back in june for fathers day! :) after the auto museum we all went to lunch together & 15349703_10154765499974591_7414931324248572510_nthen met up againnnn on sunday for christmas cooking making! ironically it ended up being december 4th which is national cooking making day! haha so we celebrated by making tons and tons and tons of cookies! we made (my favorite of course) tripple batch of peanut butter kiss cookies, sugar cookies (some frosted), white chocolate macedemia nut, chocolate chip w/almonds & coconut,  chocolate chip, lemon squares, cherry nut squares, & powdered date nut balls!!!!!! i have them ALL in my freezer. typing it all out it’s a lot lmao. and shockingly on wednesday i am going back over to my grandma’s house with my mom to make 2 more desserts and another batch of kiss cookies to use up the rest of the chocolate kisses my grandma has unwrapped hahahaha! so we have been getting into the spirit of christmas for sure!! as you all prepare for the joy of Christmas, what traditions does your family have? Is it attending a special Christmas liturgy each year? Is it enjoying a delicious stolen or coffee cake baked from your grandmother’s recipe?

future fun !!!! wedding at the end of january next month in Naples Florida! i am beyond excited and beyond getting anxious and scared lol. i have not flown since i went to italy in 7th grade before 9/11.. so that’s kinda eh. my seizure’s have been good and under control, i haven’t had any major seizures for 36 days today! yay! but i dont know where i will be then, idk. just need to stay calm. ahhhhh. calllmmm. BUT OMG YAY FLORIDA! ♥ i am SO SO SO excited! all i need to do is buy a dress or two!  so i need to head over to bibbidy bobbidy boo boutiqe asap! haha

& now sad news: my computer has been giving me problems again :( remember when i spilled the koolaid all over it? obviously it was an answered prayer that it turned back on and all my files/apps are workable etc yay but it just isn’t the same. so i had to save all my files and do a reboot – i am still missing a lot of my old favorites rawr!

 

Surprise 30th!

Happy belated Thanksgiving! leon and i had a good time over my aunts img_20161126_013121watching the game, spending time with family etc. i was even able to help my aunt out getting dinner ready ♥ after we went to his grandma’s to see his side so it was a nice day! normally each year after family time on thanksgiving, late into the night we have all our friends over for a poker game! this year would have been year 5 but leon planned on working TRIPPLE TIME on black friday! so we didn’t get a game going. img_20161123_221742steve says a poker game is going to happen at his house this christmas, so we shall see! yesturday leon worked the tripple time and i went to my cousin kaitlyns 7th birthday. she had the party at a gymnastics place which was super cool because we all got to play with the kids! i took tonssss of pictures haha she is ADORABLE! i even really personalized her birthday card this year with pictures haha.

after kaitlyns party my mom and me headed out to lunch then she had planned for us to go to Painting With A Twist! we went to the class and when i walked in i was soooo surprised to find out all the ladies in my family were there to paint with img_20161126_121945me and make memories for my birthday! it was so much fun!  and i was SO surprised when i walked in my eyes got a little teary lol. after painting we all went over to my aunt and uncles house for pizza, cake, presents, and an AWESOME game of spoons! i left litterallty feeling just as special as kaitlyn did earlier that day! ♥#29daysofCassie♥ today i am home cooking and stuff for leon and the guys who are watching football (big michgan vs ohio game today!) … and in it all i am STILL feeling fantastic with no seizures!!!!

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29 Days of Cassie

img_20161118_012718oh my lanta was thursday night a blast! to celebrate my 29 days of cassie it was CASINO NIGHT! after everyone got off work we headed to the hotel and met up then went out to this cute little italian restaurant for dinner :) we were going to go to texas de brazil but leon and i decided to wait to do that for just the two of us later, thennnn we were going to go to the casino buffet but we were up in the room getting ready and pre gamming for too long that the buffet was closed hahah who we ended up at Ottava Via img_20161118_054432which was so yummy and awesome! more hotel drinks for all THEN we finally headed to the casino around 11 or midnight lmao! it was a blast and a lot of funny things happened idk haha like this random woman came up to me and leon telling ME that she saw me and knows ive been crying over love but i have nothing to worry about because im a good man. lmfao like what? she was obviously drunk or mental lol and went on saying things like that for almost 3 mins. then later on a random guy came up to me and told me to try his drink, i of course was like wtf and said “STRANGER DANGER” as i walked away! hahaha around like 5am we went to a little diner in the casino because everyone had the munchies again before we all headed to bed! in the morning we all got up, img_20161118_195202played around with lindsays scarfs and she gave me lots of them :) then tony met up with us and we went to breakfast! once we got home in the afternoon me and leon passed outtttttt the rest of the day! lmfao later tonight is leons aunts surprise 60th birthday, so that wll be fun as well!

November

It’s November and November is Epilepsy Awareness Month!!! I of course am online doing my part to spread awareness etc all month long :) 20161116_152959 I put a purple ribbon in my tree outside my house, and of course i painted my pumpkin last month for halloween purple as well. (picture in last post). and so far i havent had a seizure since Oct. 28th! this month is also the presidential election! my choice of vote for a 3rd party has changed – but i think it will come down to the last few moments when i will really decide, and i really think a lot of people are voting that way this year unfortunately because our candidates are not thee best of choices to have .. but it is what we have. this month is ALSO my birthday month! whoa nelly i am going to be thirty years old this year on the 29th! i am excited but ive been unhappy about it a few times as well. lol so as i say each year because i anticipate the day all month long i celebrate #29daysofCassie lmao! which has officially started now lol. we even img_20161106_131939have planned a casino trip in my honor coming up on the 17th with the friends & we are all staying at the hotel! should be fun! so this month is exciting in many ways! so far ive celebrated all saints day and all souls day with my class as we attended mass together :) today i enjoyed the day painting a lot as gifts for people (painting page to be added in December) while leon watched football, then tomorrow, i am going out to SOS for a new ID! hoping it comes in the mail before the casino trip!!!!

Realness

img_20161026_132512since my last post we celebrated champ our oldest dog turning 11 years old!! crazy pup you can’t even tell he is that old because he has so much energy and spirit lol. we took him out for a walk and for some ice cream at DQ :) leon and i also have been helping my grandma get a lot of things done around her house, like putting in new appliances etc. yay for helping and yay for grandma days ♥

last saturday was Tommy’s (leons paintball buddy) wedding! we got all pretty and had a really good time enjoying and celebrating with them! followed by dinner and football on sunday haha! but in short i have been enjoying volunteering at catechism a lot this year. this month i really got to know them and moving forward with lessons has been a lot smoother etc. one of my students is a female but goes by he pronouns and dresses like a girl. img_20161015_223554intresting meeting someone at the age of 7 who is identifiing as a different sex than they were born. i am happy god put this little boy in my life :) tuesday i went out to lunch with emily from my high school committee team, we had a lot of fun sitting and gabbing the whole afternoon! this wednesday me and grandma kicked back and watched movies as the weather has been getting colder etc so we snuggled up together. at home leon and i turned the heat on officially! WINTER IS COMING! lol

Lines

donkeyelephant-cartoon-finalUSA! this year is an election year and the debates between trump and hillary have been going on… now I am not one to post, blog, or comment on anything political & I try to stay out of this on social media and I keep my feelings to myself; however I cant stay completely quiet any longer. We have one candidate running on a slogan “make america great again” and another saying that we are already “good” then we have the media slinging everything they can to fire us up and keep us on their agenda. Then we are joining in slamming each candidate on social media constantly and making arguments about what this one did is so bad/illegal while ignoring what bad/illegal things the other has done. What we are doing as Americans is we are dividing the lines even deeper so we have no hope of being “good” or “great again”. We chose these two individuals as our running mates by either voting for them in the primaries or not voting at all. So my advice is stop letting the media and the mud slinging impact your decision start finding a way to make a difference in your daily life and the life’s of those around you. America was built on the shoulders of leaders not followers, get out there and lead and stop following this crap like mindless cattle. If we all just do that then America will not only be good it will be great. Neither candidate nor Media Outlet has an agenda to unite us as Americans, everything about this race has done nothing but divide us more as a country. I have decided that i am going to use my vote next month not for either  candidate but for a third party nomination vote. I dont want to one day look back and be asked by my children who i voted for and tell them i did not vote as well as be a part of this “mess”.

Oimg_20160426_000153ther than political bullshit I am doing MUCH BETTER! my last post was so sad, but i think thats what blogging is for, to help me get things out, look back, review, move forward and live life in #gratitude ♥ so happy to have cassiedotcom.com :) lol of course. with each passing year i am growing. and i feel it, i know it. in 2012 i wanted to give up and entered myself into a phyciatric (sp?) hospital, and since then i have only been climbing the stairs of greatness. i am super proud of myself. sometimes you feel like you are the only one having a hard time, but we all are. we are constant works in progress, preparing ourselves for eternity in the kingdom of God! Amen! I had counseling last night and she was so reassuring of my wednesday cry fest, how all the feelings i was having i turned each of them around into i feel icky about this, so im going to fix it this way! yay for therapy! lol. so health wise i am back to me and working on my fabulousness with THREE DAYS SEIZURE free under my belt! because EVERY victory matters!

Another ER Visit

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EPILEPSY WARRIOR

WHOA have things been crazy this past week! last tuesday i had catechism class (as i posted about) and the day went by fine and i came home and leon bought pizza then we hung out for a bit and went to bed. i suppose some time in the middle of the night i got up sleep walking or something and had a seizure, falling and hitting my head on our entertainment center! THANKFULLY leon woke up and heard the noise and came to care for me. i guess it took him a while to get me to the hospital but eventually he got me there around 4am  and they checked me over for my skull and head injuries etc because i hit my head. they had me stay at the hospital, and even though leon took work off for wednesday img_20160929_150216because of all of it, he had not gotten any sleep all night so he called my mom and grandma and went home for some sleep. i woke up the next day with them by my side and a text from leon that made me very emotional because of how much he goes through. he is my rock! after some time i was feeling better and they let me go home later wednesday night. even though they let me go home i was still kinda loopy and groggy for a few days and needed lots of sleep so thats what i did. thursday leon had to work so i went over my grandma’s and slept there and she made dinner for me and leon because she is a sweetheart <3 she is my best friend i love her so much!!!

Everything else has been so hazy and i dont remember some days. img_20161011_000341i know we went out to breakfast one day with leons dad, and grocery shopping one day lol but mostly ive been sleeping a lot. i doooooo remember yesturday (saturday) as we stayed home again for some football but leon had the guys over and i had my second pearl party online! i ended up getting my goal for my free setting. SO i ended up opening a SECOND oyster! the first oyster i opened was a dark and the second was a pretty pink ♥ both 7.5 in size. i am having the dark in a bracelet and the pink in a ring :) yay lol so we shall see when they come.

Hard Cries

saturday was the pearl party i hosted that i was talking about in my other post :) the vantel pearl constultant did a live feed video, there was other oyster openings with people who opened some pearls and i opened my free oyster as well and got a DARK PEARL. of course that is what everyone wants, not the classic white lol. img_20160928_015813it’s like pearl gambling haha. SO my pearl is a dark blushish with some purple in it maybe? i have these pictures of the video feed from the pearl party but cannot WAIT to get it in person. the pearl was large in size too at 7.5! lol oh my the new things i get excited about at age 29! almost embaressing haha. okay sooooo for the party i didn’t reach my goal all the way for my free setting for the pearl so i am having ANOTHER free party on October 1st and then i should reach my goal ♥

also all day on saturday me and leon had a slow day of relaxing as he watched football (blah) – so at one point i went next door to see leons dad (Big Leon) and he looked super tired, pretty much napping… so i decided to take Abby over our house and have us watch her as she was kinda all alone over there (her mom and nana were out). 20160924_125348Abby was EXTREMELY unhappy that i took her away from her papa (she doesn’t come over as much anymore and is with only the three of them) so she cried —> and cried, and cried, and cried HARD! she screamed for her papa, and toys, and drink, and pretty much anything she could think of at her house to get us to take her back home because she didn’t want to be with us. she cried for about 20 mins before crying herself to sleep on the floor. she napped for a half hour, then woke up and was totally okay lol. i played with her, got her some food, and we had a good time coloring, stickers, polly pockets, & watching a barbie movie etc until her mom came home for the night.

i started catechism tonight and all went good. i was much more prepared this year and comfortable with everything knowing the routine etc, so my anxiety was much lower than last year. i met two of my students and we had fun getting to know eachother and i was happy to find out they are two kids who knew their prayers, went to church etc so their parents are going to be very helpful in getting them through this year with me. :) oh and yesturday was the presidental debates… trump vs. hillary. smh.

Be Positive

whoaaaaaaaaa i haven’t posted since my friend past. i was pretty sad that whole day, really thinking about what could happen to me etc. SUDEP is super scary and real, but that is what makes living with this disorder beautiful… i am able to live with deep beautiful gratitude! making each day count! so this week i’ve been trying to be positive as much as i could. 20160918_171025_001last sunday was a good day! me and grandma went to church and after i had my catechism meeting and got all my teaching information etc for this year. I am teaching 3rd grade again this year but have a MUCH small class this year with only 3 students, making this year super easy and intimate! I start the first day next Tuesday! img_20160921_210338after church grandma and me headed to Brandonburg Park for a little family fun. some family came and we all hung out and ate etc. trying to enjoy the last of summer before fall!!!! grandma’s brother and his son were able to come too! :) leon had softball wednesday & i attended for the first time, and i was their only fan. it was fun watching them and they won! (i dont remember the score of course lol).

yesturday was jean’s birthday so we did cake :) HAPPY BIRTHDAY 20160922_162514JEAN! today i went with leon to his doctor appointment! i set it up for him and got him to go, first time in FOREVER since he went to a doctor! so i went in there with him and made sure we got alllllll the questions answered lmao. later tonight night i went with  grandma, mom, aunt, and my cousin to Painting With A Twist! we had a good time painting of course and my mom even got herself a little twissssted with some wine hahah. it was a good time.20160923_194735

Labor Celebrations

this past weekend was labor day weekend! cannot believe the end of summer is pretty much almost here!!! it is still really hot & the michigan weather is lovely but the ‘oh my time is flying by’ feeling is coming again as another season just flew past! it was a short summer! but lots to look forward to always so not sad lol, this fall i get to start catechism again at the end of this month! yay! so i will not be sleeping this september (lmao wake me up when september ends duh).img_20160904_205106

anyyyyyyyways for labor day celebrations on Sunday the Tysar family all went out to Harsen’s island again and spent time together :) it was of course lots of good food and good laughs! leon was able to come and didn’t have work or anything and it was his first time seeing my aunt and uncles house on the island so that was fun. right when we got there i had a dumb cassie moment and fell down the stairs of the front porch and got a nasty bruise/mark on my ankle. oh man. cassie cassie cassie. haha. img_20160904_204834later in the afternoon some of usimg_20160904_204730 went out on my uncles boat for two hours around the island which was a lottttt of fun! once we got back we played lots of cards and headed home. on monday, labor day, me and leon headed to the New Baltimore park just the two of us for a little date. we packed up a picnic lunch and everything we needed, and went to the beach ♥ we did very little swimming haha but we ate and cuddled and napped in the sun. as time went by his cousin stopped by, we ended up seeing three of our high school classmates, and then an ice cream parlor later we ended the day :)

as for my silly little health updates, my late blog was about my fabulous celebration of being one moth seizure free, and im still NO GRAND MAL SEIZURES but yesturday i spent the day with my grandma, was kinda sleepy for the day, went to sleep and in the evening i ended up (so leon said) waking up sleeping walking and waking up stareing off so having an absence seizure or two. hoping i still go longer and the CBDoils keep me on the right track but at the same i know its not magic. #epilepsywarrior #gratitude

31 Days!

ONE MONTH SEIZURE FREE

i 4e0a38e8a8cdc82373fd4065152dc2a2of course needed to stop and take a moment to blog and celebrate with the world that i am one month seizure free! thirty one amazing days with no major grandmal seizures! i am so blessed as this hasn’t happened in so long! today me and leon are celebrating with a little bit of cheesecake and strawberries together and i will be continueing with no more seizures! :) i am a warrior and i choose not to suffer epilepsy, i battle epilepsy! ♥ please go to my epilepsy page!

random sidesalad: today is my dads birthday! happy birthday to my fabulous dad!

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Drafted

img_20160828_222100last sunday leon and i headed out to buffalo wild wings to meet up with all of his friends for one of his fantasy football drafts he entered! it was a good time :) since i wasn’t in the fantasy draft i brought my computer and kept myself busy on that etc while it was going on and had dinner since it was a long process for all the guys and girls. img_20160828_222153 leon received his gold fantasy football belt as he won last years draft haha. so he will hand it down to next years winner haha. they are all goofy! lol tuesday me and mister thought it would be fun to bring champ our boxer dog to dairy queen and treat him to some ice cream. since we got ella a new home the boys have been having some dominance issues and champ had the dominance first so we are trying to re-establish that for him between the guy dogs.

wednesday i spent some time with grandma and after i came home and got lots of sleeeeeep! once leon came home he checked the mail and i got some of my new sims 2 games! yay for being a simmer!haha and then today (friday) leon and i took dozer to the vet to check him for cancer and got him some shots. the bumps he had were both non cancerous :)img_20160902_091039

Grateful

20160414_150031update on Ella, the dog we have been fostering since January.. Cj, leons cousin and ella’s owner, came and picked her up. the dogs got into one last fight sunday and i another monday while waiting for him to pick her up to the next temporary owner. she left and then we went into even more full throttle looking for a forever owner over the week – thankfully i got into contact with an old friend i had back 11 years ago in High School! her and her family were very happy and excited to get her to their home. Cj then took her from the temporary home to her forever home officially on Friday!! i am deeply happy about this but as i have spent so much time with her here in our home, and cj raised her from a puppy for 4 years.. we are so sad to see her not in the family anymore and with another. its a bittersweet goodbye. we are all elated though she went to a good home of someone i know and we can get updates of :) #grateful

over this week leon’s second softball game got canceled due to rain & i did more painting! yesturday i went over my moms in the evening to help my mom make chocolate covered pretzels and surprizingly today me and leon went up to saint mary’s family festival, which i was hoping to make an appearance! we walked around new baltimore again seeing all the cool vendors out for the summer and catching our poke’mon haha.

also today leon and i were talking about my health etc and realized i haven’t had a seizure in awhile so we counted the days out and when i started the 5,000mg oil etc &…. It has been 20 days since I switched to my highest dose of Charlottes Web CBD oil & i am as of today TWENTY FOUR DAYS SEIZURE FREE!!!! This is the longest I have gone without a seizure in YEARS! if anyone needs some type of proof that medical marijuana products work or are more than recreational, I am it!!!! #grateful

in bad/good news .. i was home earlier this week with my HP laptop open on the coffee table and a full glass of kooliad. (you can see where this is going). i went to let the dogs outside, and they were very excited one bumped into the table and the the whole glass spilled alllllllll over the keyboard! i immediatly poured it off, panicked, grabbed a towel, and just started crying. leon walked in and didnt know what was going on. there was a huge FROWN FACE blue screen that said restart on the screen and i showed him. he was like OMG CALM DOWN BUT TURN IF OFF. 20160121_102415 i was freaking out over it being ruined that i didn’t even take the battery out. i was for sure it was done and i lost everything. so he immediatly (because leon is the best in the world) helped me and took the computer out the garage and blew it out with the air compressor. we let the computer sit off and dry for three days as we talked about the possibility options of a new computer for christmas and the options of getting my files. as each day passed i would remember more and more things that were saved on my laptop that i had lost. thennnnnnnn finally after the three days it came time to try it out, turn it on and see what happens. i turned it on, screen worked etc but it was slow – but overall i sighed relief and was SO THANKFUL!!!! everything was working, everything was still here. my life, my files, my games, my everythinggggggg. so i ran diagnostics etc. the keys all work. the screen is fine. the speakers work. one thing doesnt, the microphone lol. woopdie fkn doo. lmao. #grateful!

Painted Dog Walks

leon started softball last week! i was suppose to go to his game but ended up not feeling good. i haven’t had a seizure in a while, since before i went to my dad’s but i was feeling dizzy and out of it i suppose so to be safe leon had me stay home instead of go to his first game as planned… i stayed home and slept and didn’t have a seizure and the guys ended up playing their first game not so well lol. they were given a mercy by the other team or something haha. but it is something fun for him this summer and cheap good fun. so that was last week wednesday and all his games will now be wednesday nights. thursday i got cleaning done all day and leon watched football. blah. friday leon, his family, and i went out to dinner and pacos tacos … a family favorite of the stillwell & calverts lol. mexican is not my favorite but i finally think i found a dish i like there! over the weekend i started painting back up! leon even went out and bought me new paint colors :) i decided to help with money costs this year as we are behind on the garage remodel i am going to do a painting for each family member. it will be a nice, loving, handmade, and not costly xmas gift for all. the idea lit a fire under my but and i did two paintings! lol i will have to make a PAINTINGS page on cassiedotcom.com soon to keep a little corner/record of all my work!IMG_20160825_174920 and then toooooooday this afternoon leon and i headed up to New Baltimore again to catch pokemon and enjoy the town. not many of the shops were open unfortunately but this one new custard shop we tried, it was cute we loved it. had some awesome ice cream with strawberries!! yum! then did some more walking and headed home. tonight we are going over his parents house again for dinner :) should be fun!

sidesalad* Ella is leaving tomorrow for her safety. we have been looking for a dfghjhome for her since the 16th our female sasha and her keep getting into horrible fights – for for her safety, their safety and ours she is moving to another temporary home :( i am deeply sad about this. so much stress on her. she is such a loving caring beautiful amazing pet and deserves so much love in return and i just wish all us humans could get our act together and give her what she needs physically and emotionally! praying for a forever home for ella! and saying goodbye to ella tomorrow :(

The Best Hosts

This past week I have been real busy with my grandma in preparation of her birthday party! After those seizures last week thankfully I was feeling much better, got the rest I needed, and had plenty of energy to help my leading lady out :-) andddd oy boy did she need help lol…

Heather & Derak's

Heather & Derak’s

Wednesday my gma and i got together as usual and prepped her house with moving things around for her, tidying the outside as she had plans to entertain outside if good weather… so we did just that and set everything up. Friday was her birthday, we spent some time together and did food prep for the party lol… lots of food prep because my gma really knows how to throw… scratch that, host a party! Even though it was in her honor I helped her work hard on getting a good spread out for everyone. Leon later came over that evening and helped putting up a shelf and a picture frame she really wanted. We gave her our little gift then headed over to derak and Heathers! They got their first place together :-) the guys watched football and we gabbed as usual. Thennnn saturday was the big day, the day of the party! My gma had me come over early and we cooked and moved things around even moreeeee for everything lol it was fun. Love her so much! At 5pm people started arriving, I helped the whole time ago she could enjoy some time with her brother! Which was awesome he came. Everyone ate, laughed, played games and even went through old photo albums gma has in her livingroom. The little ones enjoyed the Nintendo which makes me happy because it was part of my childhood too <3 everything went smoooooth. Only thing that went wrong.. I FORGOT TO TAKE PICTURES!!!  :-(

Monday I had counceling like I do every week and it was a very lovely appointment :-) she un diagnosed me with major depression and severe anxiety!!!  Yay! My mental game is on point lately and I am doing fanfuckingtastick lol. We even moved my 20160816_135812appointments from every week to every other week! Progress! And then today Leon is out at work then a drake concert! I am not going because 300 for floor is too much $ considering I know like 4 of his songs haha. So I have the house to myself tonight! Hopefully I don’t get bored without my mister lol. Today is also leons parents 30yr wedding anniversary! They invited me, amy, and abby to go out to the movies with them this afternoon to celebrate. We of course saw a kid movie because abby was with us, we saw the real life of pets. Its was very funny I loved it. Jean and leon didn’t sit together but it was still cute they “did something” for their anniversary. You know? I pray to have a marriage where we stick together no matter what too. Anyways so here I am at home  blogging and hopefully enjoying this evening without Leon haha.

Ten Year Warrior

this month marks TEN YEARS i have been diagnosed with uncontrollable Epilepsy!

68243be24d78b3868197e8d65c39fc30looking back on this past decade there have been many ups and downs and my disorder has manifested itself in a number of different ways resulting in me loosing independence, my rights to drive machinery, and my ability to maintain any part time job. these hurdles eventually broke me down as a person but over time i learned patience, acceptance, and found my inner strength! for many years i would cry and plead with anyone for an answer as to why me?! why do i have this burden? i would wake up confused from seizures and sob wondering “when will they stop? when will this end?” but as i grieved the old me, i learned about the new me….

over the years i found a part of me that i did not know existed, and with that i am thankful for my disorder. the burden i once carried became a fight i was proud to win each day! my relationship with my higher power became stronger and my inner being began to grow as i learned to adjust month after month, year after year. i am always and still learning more about myself as i am a constant work in progress. i have embraced gratitude and am thankful for the good and do my best to see the good in the bad. my negative mind is now a positive one as i battle each day, each week, each month, and each passing year as an epilepsy warrior.113855-glowing-purple-neon-icon-people-things-people-child2

my greatest achievement however is to have chosen a very strong partner who I will have been happily with for six years this year! he provides me with the will power i need everyday to be the best me i can be. looking back on these years i know I could not have done it alone, and thanks to my boyfriend Leon and God – i didn’t have to! I am lucky! Lucky to be here today, lucky to be an epileptic, lucky to have the support group i do, and lucky to be able to share my story as i embark on the next decade as an Epilepsy Warrior