June FLEW by so fast! summer is certainly upon us! the first week of June I went with Leon and his buddies to FLINT for a paintball tournament over the weekend! it was a lot of fun and i was finally able to go to this mexican “speak easy” diner leon had been telling me about. there is this cheap’o mexican place in the front, then by the bathrooms there is a pringles machine that opens to a large dark room which is an upscale bar/fine dinning lol. i wasn’t impressed i suppose but we all had a good time! and no0o0o we did NOT stay directly in FLINT or drink Flint water. lmao, ew! but in the end the guys took first place! yay! the following weekend i went to Kaitlynn & Maddie’s dance recitle! oh my lanta it was so adorable! they both did ballet and i could just cry at the cuteness!!!! I posted some of the video’s on my youtube account :)
before the last week of june we of course had our ANNUAL stoney creek get together with everyone and enjoyed lots of fun! so much fun that the time was just slipping away and the fireworks were there before we knew it! this year we took dozer againnnn and he did amazing! and i was able to see some friends from high school who stopped by for a while, which was REALLY nice to see them! the morning after, which was a saturday, we went to the epilepsy walk with my family at the zoo until about noon. then sunday i went to Eric & Jaimie’s wedding shower! me and leon put together a really cook laundry basket filled with goodies from their wedding registry (which i never do lol)!
thennnn to end off the month i enjoyed a FUN week of Vacation Bible school at saint Mary’s! this year i was able to enjoy all areas of VBS because i did a lot of the photography! it was a lot of fun and i went CRAZY with it. i think i found my VBS calling! hahha
Hmmm what has been going on? I have been trying to blog often but to do so daily seems silly, or to talk about oh yeah i cleaned this, i gave the dogs a bath, we went shopping, we watched movies, i went online for seven hours, i watched abby six times or that i hang out with my grandma every week… lol gets a bit redundent (or however you spell that) after awhile i feel. i do try to post in the blog at LEAST once a month and with pictures! i feel pictures add to the story! like something random, after abby’s birthday she got a late birthday present which was a hatchimal! pretty cool and was fun but not the most oh wow to blog about, yet here i am, hey world abby got a hatchimal! lmao, i would like a black one. would i play with it? no. lmao but wanting is wanting bahahha. okay so onto the real post?
this past week or so the Tysar family got together for some family time to celebrate my uncles birthday :) we all went over his house and had fun over there for awhile with cake etc. was fun. and always a blast with the little kiddos around now. we also went and celebrated jaimie’s (eric’s fiance) accomplishments on graduating from college last night! she had a nice BBQ party at their house with a bon fire etc. it was fun. then today leon and i headed over to my dads house to help him with some yard work, spend time with him and then we finished off the day at the driviing range. haha lame.
A true friend knows your weaknesses but shows you your strengths; feels your fears but fortifies your faith; sees your anxieties but frees your spirit; recognizes your disabilities but emphasizes your possibilities. – William Arthur Ward.
Cheers to seven years with my darling Leon ♥ this year we celebrated a little early because of life lol. since today is Mothers day and tomorrow leon has work. but last night we went to Black Rock Grille (“it’s more than just a meal, it’s an experience”) haha. even with calling ahead the wait was very long!!! we “experienced” a wonderful meal together lol and got all dressed up :) a lot of people asked if he proposed because i posted a picture online and thought he would have, but… NOPE! lmao. still waiting! patience is a virtue ;) but it is funny because not just me, but OTHER people are starting to hassle him about it lol, LOVE it! & I Love Leon! I love the ground under his feet, the air over his head, everything he touches, and every word he says. I love all his looks, all his actions, him entirely and altogether!
Today, as I have said & as the the world (or is it an american thing? lol) knows, it is Mother’s Day! Where, who, would we be without our mothers? Happy Mothers Day to every Mom out there & Mom’s who are no longer with us. You’re appreciated more than words & loved beyond measure! Of course a special Happy Mother’s day to my Mom ♥ & Grandmother! This morning/afternoon leon and i met up with my uncle, aunt, cousin, gma, sister, & mom at this Mothers Day Brunch for breakfast etc :) it was very nice! we all got dressed up, spent some time together, enjoyed yummy food galore, and exchanged gifts! A wonderful day! Being happy never goes out of style!
Abby Marie!! ♥ You are God’s gift to us all, making the world a more beautiful place!! You are so bright, funny, and witty! This year me and uncle leon had fun picking out your birthday present as you are deeply obsessed with horses and know everythingggg about them! more than any of us adults know! you surprise us every day with how much you learn on your own! we bought you a mommy and baby horse and we are so happy that you fell in love with them instantly and named them, and then changed their names, and then changed them again… lol you LOVE to name your toys and change them constantly! we can’t keep up with your wild imagination! this year we celebrated at home, your favorite place, your mom made you a simple dinner, which made you very happy, and lots of cupcakes to make you smile :) you can find happiness in a blade of grass little one lol. i admire you!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! Continue reading →
grat·i·tude – the quality of being thankful; readiness to show appreciation for and to return kindness. :) I am feeling very greatful today as i got my letter of acceptance for disability in the mail ♥ as many of you follow my blog and public Epilepsy Fight Facebook Page, i do not work/drive, and have been fighting for disability since 2009! A recap on the story ;; in 2009 i applied, was denied & accepted the answer and went out to try working with my disorder again. after two jobs & many issues they both let me go because of the disorder problems, i tried. i applied again in 2012 and was denied 3 times over the years, but re applied with a laywer each time and went to court two times. today, may 9th 2017, i was finally NOT denied. i will not be getting all the years back pay and have agreed to it, i do not want to fight for the back pay and look greedy, i have so much gratitude for the monthly payment i will not be receiving! #GodIsGood
also giving me smiles, I’ve been spending a lot of time with Abby Marie the past few weeks, she has really been enjoying coming over my house and playing with me. We have a lot of fun together and our little routine’s with crafts, nail painting, snuggling, bubble baths, cleaning (she loves it i promise lol), and just plain goofing off haha. she is my silly nilly and i love her lots and lots. she has grown so fast! i cannot believe she will be turning FOUR this month! so crazy! I love you so much little lady!!!
My students graduated 3rd grade catechism this week!!!!! Can’t believe another year is over! My two sweethearts i will remember forever. this small class was such a special one :) a lot of fun and special memories were made with the three of us ♥ on the last day i took them on an exploration of the church in and out, going through all the statue’s and meanings etc, took a lot of pictures because i dont ever want to forget these cutie’s!
this week was also memorable with moreeee as leon turned 29! his last year in his twenties!!! we got together with some friends and went to b-dubs etc and had some fun. the draft was going on on the same day and jason p was celebrating his bday as well so all the guys were happy! we were all going to go to the casino and texas de brazil too another day but that fell through lol. b dubs with friends was just fine for him lol. we all had a good time and thats what he wanted. Just want him happy because that is what he makes me! Every moment of my life is so special for me, because I have a wonderful, caring and truly special person by my side. I am so happy that you are mine Leon, Happy Birthday, my sweetheart!!!!
the guys have been KILLING it in paintball this summer! Leon joined Average Joe’s paintball team and leon with the team have been doing amazing. Sunday they just won 1st place in the tournament. Sunday me and Marina hung out together in the muddddd and really “bonded” haha. lol what other way do you say it? she’s fantastic and her daughter is a cutie! same age as Abby, can’t wait until they meet one day and play together. adorable times to come! lol SO anyways i got a nice tan as they won and we talked the whole time. well lets be honest, i got my first sunburn of the year! whoa nelly!
New binge: Code Black on CBS :) loving the show very much! watching it like everyday so far lol. and randomly in the mix of this blog.. I have had my Samsung Note 4 phone for 2.5yrs & JUST LEARNED TODAY it has a sensor on it to measure heart rate / stress etc!!! =O WTF! haha these smart phones are too smart for me!!!!
OMG Mom Prom was AMAZING! first off, i DID get my nails done :) ha, and leon’s dad is a sweetheart and paid for it so i could feel all fancy haha. heather came and picked me up yesturday afternoon and we both did our hair and got ready at her house :) Mandie even came over to help us. we got there and there were hundreds of gift baskets that were being raffled off. all the women were able to vote for eachother as prom queens lol. there was a photobooth we all had a blast with of course, then there was the open bar and an awesome buffet dinner! yum! heather and i had a blast dancing all night and i was able to remince with some old friends from HighSchool who were there as well. a night well deserved for all the ladies who went! and getting dolled up like a princess is ALWAYS fun! ♥ I will 100% be going to the Mom Prom next year! cannot wait to find out what theme they will have in store for us all! this year the theme was fire and ice =P Now time to sleep as the guys all have a paintball tournament tomorrow!!! =O
It is hard to believe ten years ago today my cat, Prince, passed away. you never forget the love of an animal! For a pet, he was my most favorite hello and our family’s hardest goodbye :'( you are still missed today buddy!!! unfortunately i dont have any pictures of him saved on the laptop as it was so many years ago.
Good things to bring up a happy spirit today? i’m with the best kiss-giving, boo-boo fixing, candy buying, fun-supplying, story-telling, grandkid-spoiling Grandma ever! <3 many things in life aren’t equal but everyone gets the same 24hrs, 7 days a week etc. we all make time for what we truly want. i’m spending time with my lovely lady! We are doing some shopping for mothers day together and enjoying our Wednesday time =P as always duh! We even headed over to the shoe store so i could pick up some heels for the Mom Prom… because…
Tomorrow is Mom Prom! =O leon, me, and his dad are going to run some errands together in the morning and afternoon, & hopefully i can get leon to agree & get my nails done ;) lol
Me and Heather have been dress shopping for her for Mom Prom! Mom prom is a charity event we are going to be going to! Basically it is a fun night for women to get all fancy at a hall, dinner, drinks, dancing and the money raised goes to battered women shelters! :) We are super excited to go and have been getting ready since February lol.
Another thing that everyyyyone has been getting ready for is Easter tomorrow! me and Grandma decorated her house a little bit together and put together cute little baskets for the kiddos! I even made a little basket for Abby. Easter will be at my Grandma’s house this year, so planning with her for events is always a blast. We have even been getting her outside patio ready for the kids to find eggs outside ♥ & play. As for early Easter celebrations today Leon and I met up with Eric and his brother up at Michigan University for the Spring Football game! it was beautiful out and a lot of fun! We left a little early and headed over to my brothers for Easter fun! My brother had us all over for some yummy food and dessert =P We all had such a wonderful time together!
wednesday was a sucessful GrandmaDay! haha we went and got her hairs cut <3 lol and we did work on the t-shirt blanket a little bit and made some yummy cookies for her HighSchool reunion group that she see’s once a month (which i think is so fucking adorable) and i even got to take some home which leon was of course very happy about hahaha.
before the weekend grandma and me took kaitlyn & maddie to the movie’s! we saw a cute music movie with animals called sing and then we took them to mcdonalds before we took them back home :)
then today was palm sunday! we went to church early to pray the rosary and took some flowers and palms to grandpas grave ♥ i like going with her to visit past loved ones, i like sharing those moments with her. helping cleaning up the grave sites .. letting her know, almost silently reassuring her that i will care for her when she is gone. i love my grandma so much, she is serioulsy my best best best best friend! even we get into fights =P
I miss you when I can’t sleep
Or right after coffee
Or right when I can’t eat
I miss you in my front seat
Still got sand in my sweaters
From nights we don’t remember
Do you miss me like I miss you?
Fucked around and got attached to you
Friends can break your heart too,
And I’m always tired but never of you
If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn’t like that shit
I put this reel out, but you wouldn’t bite that shit
I type a text but then I never mind that shit
I got these feelings but you never mind that shit
Oh oh, keep it on the low
You’re still in love with me but your friends don’t know
If you wanted me you would just say so
And if I were you, I would never let me go
recently we went back to the gymnasics place that we celebrated last November Kaitlyn’s 7th birthday to now celebrate Jacob’s 3rd Birthday!! :) everyone had a really great time again with a spiderman theme! i love this place as everything is really organized etc. i am so0o0o going to bring my future kiddo’s here for fun and parties! this party for jacob me and leon brought abby! she had a blast! and is still talking about it! lol next month is my sister stephanie’s birthday :)
we had ANOTHER special birthday this month! DOZER BOY! lol doggie boxer birthday! our cutie patootie turned 5 years old this year! we cannot believe how fast and big he has grown over time! he is still our big puppy boy and oh he acts like a puppy still haha. for his dad we took him for a car ride and to the pet store. we love our fur babies so much! (more about them here)
EPILEPSY WARRIORNESS: i had a crazyyy seizure in my sleep that left me so0o sore and tired and for some reason i thought it was a “good idea” to go to frenkenmuth with my mom and grandma. i slept the whole way there and the whole way back. wasnt able to enjoy convos or the food. it was horrible! i hateeee epilepsy struggle days like this!! but i was a warrior and made it through! so that alone, even though my muscles hurt and my brain is still foggy, the day is gone & the seizure is done. I MADE IT! WARRIOR!!
this week i had catechism scheduled as planned and was FINALLY able to see my kiddo’s for the first time since before christmas!!! reason being ;; there was no classes for christmas break .. once new years was over there was like TWO SNOW DAYS and a family day before i left for florida so i didnt get to see my students then either. THEN i went to florida and took off a tuesday to be with leon after which brings me to this week in FEBRUARY where i finally was able to see them! it was a lot of fun. we colored and enjoyed talking about our holidays etc etc while also trying my best to catch up on everything we lost! yikes! other than that loveliness i had 2 small seizures in the morning and luckily leon was canvased out of work that day to take care of me! i of course am feeling much better and rested all week. this weekend me and leon are also going to keep it calm. as of right now we have no valentines day plans for next week, like it matters we totally love the crap out of each other! do you all have any special vday plans for this up coming tuesday?
since being back home it has of course been a COLD CHANGE and snowy! lots of snow when i arrived back to the mitten state! lol which was okay i am not complaining, it was just odd going from two opposites in a day lol. really nothing has been different, i missed leon A LOT! we missed eachother! he even slept on myside of the bed while i was gone .. oh my lanta so cute! lol i melted when he told me that lol. each night we have spent together of course soaking eachother up :) lol my clothes in the suitcase smell like the ocean, salty. thats how ariel smells too, i love it! wish i wouldnt go away but as soon as i wash everything it will. blah. so BACK TO THE GRID this week with the usual. i took off catechism to spend time with leon. i spent wednesday and thursday with grandma (love me some grandma days) and then sadly on friday we had to head to frenkenmuth for leon’s mom’s friends funeral :( we went to the ceremony mass then had a snack and chatted after with everyone. so that was a sucky start to the weekend but we kept busy with getting our errands done, lots of shopping and cleaning because leon was a lost puppy without me! lmao. but we ended he weekend last night with the annual SUPER BOWL PARTY! this year heather and derak hosted & we helped with the food :) it was lots of fun, good to see everyone, and we even brought dozer! lmao
FLORIDA WAS AMAZING! we started off with anxiety lol and my dad had me use a wheelchair in the detroit airport haha, he is a goof and loves me so much and worries about me. but the flight was fine, i didnt have any seizure episodes on the flight there or back or any episodes while i was on the vacation at all! i was even able to have a glass of wine or two while i was out :) it was splendid. i didddddddd get drunky cassie on accident but shhh cause im confident i kept it under wraps lmao. okay so basically we went from airport to resort in naples and didnt leave the resort once until it was time to leave lmao. we had an awesome room, and in my favorite color right off the beach. we enjoyed the pool & beach and tanning together and loved going out to breakfast each morning with a lot of good laughs & eating my new FAVORITE: eggs benedict. the weather in naples florida was beautiful and warm while the air smelled wonderful. the sand was clean and packable – i really liked the feeling of it lol. i loved looking for shells, me and my dad picked out a couple together for me to take home and i even found a SAND DOLLAR! unforunately it didnt make it back safely in the trip back home and broke, sad but it had the “5 doves” inside. the only souviener my dad let me take home was my memories and pictures lmao. frugal guy but i wouldnt have it any other way! the trip was amazing! bon fires on the beach, walks on the ocean, sunsets, pizza partys in the hotel rooms, drinks in the hot tub, wine served to you on the beach ♥ a VERY PRICEY heaven lol.
oh my lordy have i been busy busy and have been getting ready for my trip to florida tomorrow morning, which i am so0o0o pumped for! leon had Monday, Martin Luthar King day off and was able to come home tuesday, which was awesome to spend extra time with him before my trip xoxo. because of the trip stress i did have a small seizure on tuesday at some point but i have been trying to stay positive and after i was feeling better this past week we have been going to the gym again (yay) and i have been counting my calories which i have been liking. we also went back and renewed my medical marijuana card because of the laws etc and its not given at a regular pharmacy in this day n age yet. saturday i got my nails and wax done, making me feel all sassy for the trip and monday we got some last stop shopping done for things i would need for the trip! $55.00 on crap pretty much lol. then tonight i had family night at catechism and leon helped me pack :) i leave tomorrow for the airport in the morning with leon and my dad ♥ wish me luck with NO SEIZURES on the airplane andddd on the trip! Anxiety is high but prayers!
PS: Happy Birthday to my baby boy Efferson Emanuel!!!
hello hello to drama =/ of course this blog is public so i dont like to air dirty laundry (lame for the readers i know but… it just isnt even good enough for a private post, promise the good ones will have those! lol) howeverrrr there was some tears dropped and words spoke with a relative. both parties needing to talk it out more so we shall see. i will say my grandma has been a wonderful and helpful support in keeping me calm and understanding about everything. best frand she is ♥ ♥ ♥
epilepsy: blahhhhh i was home alone and i guess i was emotional and had an episode that made me fall, possibly grabbing the cat tree down with me which in turn hit our living room window and broke it! yikes! sidesalad: it is okay as we are getting new doors & windows this year anywhichway — BUT back to the story, i fell and i guess everyone couldnt get a hold of me, the dogs were going crazy, and leons dad came over to check on me and found me on the ground with the cat tree on me with glass everywhere! scary but i guess after some time of coming back to alertness i was okay. sore, but okay. :) #epilepsywarrior!
as for random happenings TRUMP IS PRESIDENT lol. Happy Birthday tooooo my Step Dad Dennis! love you! andddd we did game night with linds and steve at our house, MONOPOLY! hahah which has been fun hanging out with the two of them again yes yes! and we also did some #tysartime over michelle and jeffs for some furtah christmas! our last gift openings! (well for the kiddos lol) other than that we have been trying to start a new year normal. leon work mon-thurs. counseling mon, catechism tues, & grandmas on wed’s :) so far so good except catechism was canceled this week to a snow day! other than that i have taken another its a new year facebook leave lol for a week or two im sure .. we shall see. until then i usually go nuts on instagram and recently i am a snapchat fan! whoa nelly!
leon has had this week off so it has been nice spending it with him a we ring in the new year of 2017 ♥ we havent done any fighting etc he just starts getting bored towards the end of his vacations lol. so during this vacation i ended up getting a little sick, not bad, just a sore throat. i went to the dr’s so he checked on it and i also talked to him about TMJ from biteing down during seizures etc. nothing really came of it, it still hurts sometimes =/ on FRIDAY we all went over to the “eastpointe estate” lol to celebrate her birthday :) happy birthday heather!!!! i got her an alex an ani that donated to the american heart foundation. then saturday was new years eve! we all headed over to steve’s and went CRAZY in the food department! lol we are all nuts. so we had lots of fun all night of course and midnight came too soon lol. we all stayed the night and did breakfast the next morning with left overs lol. THENNNNN because everyone was too drunk to play any board games new years eve lol steve n linds came over new years day for game night haha.
yesturday night we headed over to my brothers house to celebrate my sister angela’s birthday! it was nice getting together and we were able to exchange xmas gifts <3 after it all last night i ended up having a seizure in my sleep =/ today i am doing okay just relaxing and resting more after all the christmass and partying madness lol. today leon went back to work so now its time to get back to a sense of normal. get all the xmas decor outta the house, clean up, and the routine back in action lol. only one more xmas adventure left this up coming weekend with the tysars to see the furtahs :)
random, my vantel pearls finally showed up! so annoying lol. never going to get into that crap again lol. they got me hook line and sinker! in random sad news: facebook live is fairly new: some girl in the USA commited suicide live online :'( WOW – WTF
& a sidesalad: no catechism this week still, winter break! haven’t seen them since before xmas!
the cold and snow has shown up! i can’t say i LOVE it but i can’t imagine it any other way ♥ haha so we went from the dogs sleeping at the bottom of the bed and fans blowing at night to the fur babies cuddling with us non-stop and me and leon keeping cozy under blankets and walking around the house in our slippers. lol. i love when season’s change. neither of us thankfully have gotten sick really. i was having a hard time earing out of my ears for almost two months (was getting worried) but it was the weather change and they are getting back to normal. also on the health front. i just recently hit a new “milestone” of sorts, my newest longest amount of days ive gone seizure free in yearssssssss is 46 days! very pleased! yay for CBD oils!
onward with holiday happenings! the tree is up, decorated and the shopping has begun! hahah leon and i have gone out and did out christmas shopping here and there for everyone and each other – so we know what we are getting for eachother this year. very anti climactic =/ i dont think we will be doing it again. yeah leon got a tablet (what he wanted) and i got to pick out some things i would have gotten if i shopped on my own … but thats not christmas. it was so not good feeling wrapping my own present for the first time this year. so i say nooooo to this idea in the future again. HOWEVER christmas will be perfect as usual because it is with my love. christmas plans are as follows: christmas eve in the evening we go over to leons aunts house, do dinner & gifts, stay out past midnight having fun! christmas morning we wake (sleep in on xmas for first time in our 6 years together lol) up & do gifts/breakfast then later go over to my aunts house for dinner & gifts etc. then late in the evening we go over to steve’s for the 2nd annual poker game. thennnnn maybe a day or two later (date unknown) we will go out to dinner with the cardillos. for new years eve? POSSIBLY caseville which im really hoping for but who knows… what are you all doing for christmas? what about new years eve? any big plans or traditions?
sidesalad: i am going to Florida for my brothers wedding for sure now. i went out and bought shoes and a dress already i just need to get it altered a bit and send it out with my dads suit to the hotel (not traveling with it)!! so much fun! the more me and dad/anthony/or saba talk about it the more and more excited i get. i look on the resort site and they have so many attractions, auto museums that my dad would love, animal rehabilitation centers with nature trails and my dad would love that haha, oh and a cruise at sunset to watch the dolphins for $40 an adult! i mean oh my lanta!!!! sign me up!
I’m 30! my birthday was tuesday and a normal day it was :) i had so much birthdayness all month a normal birthday was PERFECT! i relaxed all day and then had catechism with my little kiddo’s ♥ once i came home leon had a birthday card and made me dinner xoxox
this past weekend has been a lot of fun!!! it was another #TYSARTIME weekend! my uncle jay got some time off from work and was about to fly up to michigan from florida to visit! we always try to make the most of it as we can when he comes in because we love and miss him so much! on friday the whole family got together and went to this hidden gem auto museum that is not open the time! Stahl’s is a collection filled with cars, signs, music machines, memorbilia, etc! the family broke apart and enjoyed the place a lot. leon really enjoyed it as it reminded him a lot of his late grandpa with all the old antique cars! me and leon plan on bringing our dads back in june for fathers day! :) after the auto museum we all went to lunch together & then met up againnnn on sunday for christmas cooking making! ironically it ended up being december 4th which is national cooking making day! haha so we celebrated by making tons and tons and tons of cookies! we made (my favorite of course) tripple batch of peanut butter kiss cookies, sugar cookies (some frosted), white chocolate macedemia nut, chocolate chip w/almonds & coconut, chocolate chip, lemon squares, cherry nut squares, & powdered date nut balls!!!!!! i have them ALL in my freezer. typing it all out it’s a lot lmao. and shockingly on wednesday i am going back over to my grandma’s house with my mom to make 2 more desserts and another batch of kiss cookies to use up the rest of the chocolate kisses my grandma has unwrapped hahahaha! so we have been getting into the spirit of christmas for sure!! as you all prepare for the joy of Christmas, what traditions does your family have? Is it attending a special Christmas liturgy each year? Is it enjoying a delicious stolen or coffee cake baked from your grandmother’s recipe?
future fun !!!! wedding at the end of january next month in Naples Florida! i am beyond excited and beyond getting anxious and scared lol. i have not flown since i went to italy in 7th grade before 9/11.. so that’s kinda eh. my seizure’s have been good and under control, i haven’t had any major seizures for 36 days today! yay! but i dont know where i will be then, idk. just need to stay calm. ahhhhh. calllmmm. BUT OMG YAY FLORIDA! ♥ i am SO SO SO excited! all i need to do is buy a dress or two! so i need to head over to bibbidy bobbidy boo boutiqe asap! haha
& now sad news: my computer has been giving me problems again :( remember when i spilled the koolaid all over it? obviously it was an answered prayer that it turned back on and all my files/apps are workable etc yay but it just isn’t the same. so i had to save all my files and do a reboot – i am still missing a lot of my old favorites rawr!