pure romance! tomorrow evening i am going to a pure romance party. even though i have no spending cash on luxury items and will not be making a purchase, i am going to see the new stuff and enjoy some company as i do stay in a lot! i wrangled three friends that will possibly go, but most likely it will only be Kayde. shocker. no ones fun anymore. everyone always says “lets hang out” & “omg i miss you, we need to set something up” and no one ever does! does this happen to you often? all my friends are unintrested in hanging out. enjoying a social conversation and going home with a smile on your face knowing you had a good night. i know i will tomorrow night. its unfortunate my “friends” never want to hang out. although i say “friends” i dont have many. probably three or four that i would call and acctually try and set something up, but again no one really wants to these days. maybe its an age transition. i will not like my twenties have felt off and odd. i dont know how to explain it i suppose. anyways i think it will be fun!
i have a doctor appointment on monday and they will weigh me, and their scale does NOT lie!!! anything in the 180’s will make me happy right now. and yes no lie i said 180. i am at my HIGHEST weight EVER! its so gross i hate it but its so hard at this stage in my life to stick to a diet that works with my daily activities which is minimal. i have P90X, which from what i hear is a god send to many! i should just buckle down and use it. i need support. constant support and motivation, i am motivated in mentaly wanting to loose weight but not get up and do something about it. well i went shopping as i said in my last post stating i stocked up on food because i got my DHS (thank god!!!) and i did get a lot of healthy food and good things to make good meals with. only bad thing i got really was everything to make smores lol, idk what but ive been craveing them forever now!!! yay for smores but yay for fruit and veggies too!!