since my grandma’s injury and surgery i had been keeping busy with caring for her AS MUCH as i can! she has such a hard time dressing herself, showering, and getting normal things done.. such as writing out checks for her bills! i have been trying to go over her house as much as possible! not only me but a lot of my family has been stoping by, she is also VERY bored! she cannot drive, get out etc so we are trying to keep her company & happy as well as comfortable. i set up a puzzle on her table she can work on over time because she can only use one arm right now. other than with her, while i am home i have been playing a lot of sims (which i STILL have TWO and wanting 4 to keep my mind busy, or i have abby over to put a smile on my face, which of course is a given! haha! so, after my grandma’s surgery she started having a nurse come over and care for her, so the need for me to come over has been a bit less as she regains her independence through rehab. i am happy about this but i feel like i have fallen into a bit of a .. depression. just a little meh everything is hitting me because i was being so strong for so long kinda thing. but i will be a-o-kay :) happy things like family and friends pull me out of it everytime. i was keeping busy as time went on, as july turned into August – all of a sudden time didn’t stand still any longer because of her injury as family canoeing trips happened, friend trips to the zoo took place, paintball trips to Indiana planned, & with family & friend wedding plans ahead! time is fleating once again…
the first weekend of August held our annual Tysar Canoe trip (leaving behind a family member to check on gma of course) which came with a FIRST, the little kids came along! memories to last a lifetime, pictures we will cherish forever, & many more years of fun ahead! Next weekend will hold me and leons FIRST TRIP OUT OF STATE TOGETHER! haha he has a paintball tournament in Indiana, and if they win it will help them get a playing spot in the World Cup Tournament in Florida next November! (info to come in later posts!) I am excited to go to Indiana!
Seizures? My focus on grandma has been so strong the stress didnt effect me? or so thats what i am going with? i dont know, i was totally fine! i tried my absolute best to take care of me reguarding sleep and eating – as for now, everything is feeling a tad wonky but no seizures just yet. i dont really wanna say anything because i dont want leon to miss the indiana trip or me miss the indiana trip… very childish behavior at 30 I KNOW but it is so hard to not want to enjoy life when really you DONT KNOW what could happen, to stay home and nothing happens when you could be out SUCKS. it SUCKS. blah!