hello hello to drama =/ of course this blog is public so i dont like to air dirty laundry (lame for the readers i know but… it just isnt even good enough for a private post, promise the good ones will have those! lol) howeverrrr there was some tears dropped and words spoke with a relative. both parties needing to talk it out more so we shall see. i will say my grandma has been a wonderful and helpful support in keeping me calm and understanding about everything. best frand she is ♥ ♥ ♥
epilepsy: blahhhhh i was home alone and i guess i was emotional and had an episode that made me fall, possibly grabbing the cat tree down with me which in turn hit our living room window and broke it! yikes! sidesalad: it is okay as we are getting new doors & windows this year anywhichway — BUT back to the story, i fell and i guess everyone couldnt get a hold of me, the dogs were going crazy, and leons dad came over to check on me and found me on the ground with the cat tree on me with glass everywhere! scary but i guess after some time of coming back to alertness i was okay. sore, but okay. :) #epilepsywarrior!
as for random happenings TRUMP IS PRESIDENT lol. Happy Birthday tooooo my Step Dad Dennis! love you! andddd we did game night with linds and steve at our house, MONOPOLY! hahah which has been fun hanging out with the two of them again yes yes! and we also did some #tysartime over michelle and jeffs for some furtah christmas! our last gift openings! (well for the kiddos lol) other than that we have been trying to start a new year normal. leon work mon-thurs. counseling mon, catechism tues, & grandmas on wed’s :) so far so good except catechism was canceled this week to a snow day! other than that i have taken another its a new year facebook leave lol for a week or two im sure .. we shall see. until then i usually go nuts on instagram and recently i am a snapchat fan! whoa nelly!
leon has had this week off so it has been nice spending it with him a we ring in the new year of 2017 ♥ we havent done any fighting etc he just starts getting bored towards the end of his vacations lol. so during this vacation i ended up getting a little sick, not bad, just a sore throat. i went to the dr’s so he checked on it and i also talked to him about TMJ from biteing down during seizures etc. nothing really came of it, it still hurts sometimes =/ on FRIDAY we all went over to the “eastpointe estate” lol to celebrate her birthday :) happy birthday heather!!!! i got her an alex an ani that donated to the american heart foundation. then saturday was new years eve! we all headed over to steve’s and went CRAZY in the food department! lol we are all nuts. so we had lots of fun all night of course and midnight came too soon lol. we all stayed the night and did breakfast the next morning with left overs lol. THENNNNN because everyone was too drunk to play any board games new years eve lol steve n linds came over new years day for game night haha.
yesturday night we headed over to my brothers house to celebrate my sister angela’s birthday! it was nice getting together and we were able to exchange xmas gifts <3 after it all last night i ended up having a seizure in my sleep =/ today i am doing okay just relaxing and resting more after all the christmass and partying madness lol. today leon went back to work so now its time to get back to a sense of normal. get all the xmas decor outta the house, clean up, and the routine back in action lol. only one more xmas adventure left this up coming weekend with the tysars to see the furtahs :)
random, my vantel pearls finally showed up! so annoying lol. never going to get into that crap again lol. they got me hook line and sinker! in random sad news: facebook live is fairly new: some girl in the USA commited suicide live online :'( WOW – WTF
& a sidesalad: no catechism this week still, winter break! haven’t seen them since before xmas!
another christmas in the books! plans that were made changed a little bit but mostly went through. christmas eve leon and i relaxed then went to his aunts at 1pm and enjoyed a lot of fun with the family until about 9pm. we played new games, i won a round of LCR, and we got goofy funny white elephant gifts. the fun seems to of course be spending time together, but watching the little ones grow and enjoy being young together :) it is fun to watch, to talk and laugh about etc. it makes christmas just that much more special when little ones are around i think. sooooo after we left his aunts we went home to wait for santa! not really, like i said in my last post, we know everything we got, and i wrapped the gifts, even the ones i got haha. (anti climactic.) so, lol really we went home, i cleaned a little, and he passed out on the couch. i put all the gifts under the tree and went to bed.
Christmas morning leon and i slept in! which i NEVER so on christmas lol. we opened our gifts one by one even knowing what they all were then made breakfast and relaxed. once we got ready to go over my aunts house we stopped by leons parents house for a little while to visit and see what abby got from santa :) my aunts house was fun! this year some people who normally visit, visited other sides of their families (its so hard to choose and make everyone happy! especialy with kiddos!) so the TYSAR clan was a lot smaller this year. after my aunts we all headed over to steve’s house for his annual POKER GAME! even tho we ended up playing black jack haha. steve and linds announced they are back together (OMG YAY) and we stayed the night! which followed the next day sleeping in, breakfast made by the couple lol. once me and leon got home the next day we PASSED OUT! lol for like three days now haha! christmas was amazing as usual!
the cold and snow has shown up! i can’t say i LOVE it but i can’t imagine it any other way ♥ haha so we went from the dogs sleeping at the bottom of the bed and fans blowing at night to the fur babies cuddling with us non-stop and me and leon keeping cozy under blankets and walking around the house in our slippers. lol. i love when season’s change. neither of us thankfully have gotten sick really. i was having a hard time earing out of my ears for almost two months (was getting worried) but it was the weather change and they are getting back to normal. also on the health front. i just recently hit a new “milestone” of sorts, my newest longest amount of days ive gone seizure free in yearssssssss is 46 days! very pleased! yay for CBD oils!
onward with holiday happenings! the tree is up, decorated and the shopping has begun! hahah leon and i have gone out and did out christmas shopping here and there for everyone and each other – so we know what we are getting for eachother this year. very anti climactic =/ i dont think we will be doing it again. yeah leon got a tablet (what he wanted) and i got to pick out some things i would have gotten if i shopped on my own … but thats not christmas. it was so not good feeling wrapping my own present for the first time this year. so i say nooooo to this idea in the future again. HOWEVER christmas will be perfect as usual because it is with my love. christmas plans are as follows: christmas eve in the evening we go over to leons aunts house, do dinner & gifts, stay out past midnight having fun! christmas morning we wake (sleep in on xmas for first time in our 6 years together lol) up & do gifts/breakfast then later go over to my aunts house for dinner & gifts etc. then late in the evening we go over to steve’s for the 2nd annual poker game. thennnnn maybe a day or two later (date unknown) we will go out to dinner with the cardillos. for new years eve? POSSIBLY caseville which im really hoping for but who knows… what are you all doing for christmas? what about new years eve? any big plans or traditions?
sidesalad: i am going to Florida for my brothers wedding for sure now. i went out and bought shoes and a dress already i just need to get it altered a bit and send it out with my dads suit to the hotel (not traveling with it)!! so much fun! the more me and dad/anthony/or saba talk about it the more and more excited i get. i look on the resort site and they have so many attractions, auto museums that my dad would love, animal rehabilitation centers with nature trails and my dad would love that haha, oh and a cruise at sunset to watch the dolphins for $40 an adult! i mean oh my lanta!!!! sign me up!
I’m 30! my birthday was tuesday and a normal day it was :) i had so much birthdayness all month a normal birthday was PERFECT! i relaxed all day and then had catechism with my little kiddo’s ♥ once i came home leon had a birthday card and made me dinner xoxox
this past weekend has been a lot of fun!!! it was another #TYSARTIME weekend! my uncle jay got some time off from work and was about to fly up to michigan from florida to visit! we always try to make the most of it as we can when he comes in because we love and miss him so much! on friday the whole family got together and went to this hidden gem auto museum that is not open the time! Stahl’s is a collection filled with cars, signs, music machines, memorbilia, etc! the family broke apart and enjoyed the place a lot. leon really enjoyed it as it reminded him a lot of his late grandpa with all the old antique cars! me and leon plan on bringing our dads back in june for fathers day! :) after the auto museum we all went to lunch together & then met up againnnn on sunday for christmas cooking making! ironically it ended up being december 4th which is national cooking making day! haha so we celebrated by making tons and tons and tons of cookies! we made (my favorite of course) tripple batch of peanut butter kiss cookies, sugar cookies (some frosted), white chocolate macedemia nut, chocolate chip w/almonds & coconut, chocolate chip, lemon squares, cherry nut squares, & powdered date nut balls!!!!!! i have them ALL in my freezer. typing it all out it’s a lot lmao. and shockingly on wednesday i am going back over to my grandma’s house with my mom to make 2 more desserts and another batch of kiss cookies to use up the rest of the chocolate kisses my grandma has unwrapped hahahaha! so we have been getting into the spirit of christmas for sure!! as you all prepare for the joy of Christmas, what traditions does your family have? Is it attending a special Christmas liturgy each year? Is it enjoying a delicious stolen or coffee cake baked from your grandmother’s recipe?
future fun !!!! wedding at the end of january next month in Naples Florida! i am beyond excited and beyond getting anxious and scared lol. i have not flown since i went to italy in 7th grade before 9/11.. so that’s kinda eh. my seizure’s have been good and under control, i haven’t had any major seizures for 36 days today! yay! but i dont know where i will be then, idk. just need to stay calm. ahhhhh. calllmmm. BUT OMG YAY FLORIDA! ♥ i am SO SO SO excited! all i need to do is buy a dress or two! so i need to head over to bibbidy bobbidy boo boutiqe asap! haha
& now sad news: my computer has been giving me problems again :( remember when i spilled the koolaid all over it? obviously it was an answered prayer that it turned back on and all my files/apps are workable etc yay but it just isn’t the same. so i had to save all my files and do a reboot – i am still missing a lot of my old favorites rawr!
100% my brain right now <3 AS HAPPY AS HAPPY CAN BE!!!
happy happy! feeling amazing, happy, and FILLED with gratitude! ♥ today i am 31 DAYS SEIZURE FREE!!!!!! #CBDforEpilepsy #epilepsywarrior #seizurefree #epilepsyawareness #epilepsyawarenessmonth this has been the most special November! I of course always love my birthday month, but such a blessing to be seizure free during my favorite time of year! i am of course hoping this good health pours over from November to December/Christmas! I am so grateful to be this clear minded and healthy right now, but i want more! the desire to be seizure free for a year or two is SO GREAT! (prayer: dear Lord, please lay your hands upon me and hold me in your arms as epilepsy is in my life. thank you lord for watching over me today and everyday! please comfort those who also fight this battle along side me as each year at least 200,000 people are diagnosed! epilepsy is big, but you are bigger! amen!)
Happy belated Thanksgiving! leon and i had a good time over my aunts watching the game, spending time with family etc. i was even able to help my aunt out getting dinner ready ♥ after we went to his grandma’s to see his side so it was a nice day! normally each year after family time on thanksgiving, late into the night we have all our friends over for a poker game! this year would have been year 5 but leon planned on working TRIPPLE TIME on black friday! so we didn’t get a game going. steve says a poker game is going to happen at his house this christmas, so we shall see! yesturday leon worked the tripple time and i went to my cousin kaitlyns 7th birthday. she had the party at a gymnastics place which was super cool because we all got to play with the kids! i took tonssss of pictures haha she is ADORABLE! i even really personalized her birthday card this year with pictures haha.
after kaitlyns party my mom and me headed out to lunch then she had planned for us to go to Painting With A Twist! we went to the class and when i walked in i was soooo surprised to find out all the ladies in my family were there to paint with me and make memories for my birthday! it was so much fun! and i was SO surprised when i walked in my eyes got a little teary lol. after painting we all went over to my aunt and uncles house for pizza, cake, presents, and an AWESOME game of spoons! i left litterallty feeling just as special as kaitlyn did earlier that day! ♥#29daysofCassie♥ today i am home cooking and stuff for leon and the guys who are watching football (big michgan vs ohio game today!) … and in it all i am STILL feeling fantastic with no seizures!!!!
Aunt Cindy’s surprise 60th was a ton of fun! we all surprised her by showing up the a restaurant out in saint clair shores, enjoyed an awesome dinner together, and had her open up gifts! i was even able to get everyone together for a big group picture! (not often or easy lol)
tomorrow thanksgiving! i can’t believe time is flying that fast! always say that but it feels just like that, fleeting! but since its thanksgiving week i dont have catechism as the kids are on break! instead me and grandma hung out this week prepping pies, side dishes etc for thanksgiving and getting her house cleaned up so she could have company over! tomorrow’s plans are to celebrate turkey day at my aunt and uncles house then stop at his grandma’s after for desert! black friday i am going to my little cousins birthday party then out with my mom for my birthday! :) ahhhhhhhhhhh just feeling fantastic lately, no seizures in 26 days! =O
well election day came & went, and i did not want to NOT vote, so i did :) at the end of the day Donald Trump won, so he is our new President Elect! Many people have been happy and others really upset – many in the world protesting more or rioting .. so lame. although i REALLY think they need to get rid of “electorial votes” or whatever, the world has come so far electronically i dont see it being necessary. oh well i am not in politics, and i put in my two cents. i guess either way people will be upset no matter what. since election day me and grandma got real crafty making a christmas like chandelier! it was quite the project we were not expecting to be so hard haha. we even accidentally burned ourselves with the glue etc, but most important we had fun! we are a great team! we also got a lot of yard work done together at her place too! other than that there has been so much football on tv lmao, so leon does that a lot and i’ve been keeping up with painting and crochet as well! my white baby blanket is coming along quite nicely! but tomorrow night.. casino night! this is going to be a blast!
It’s November and November is Epilepsy Awareness Month!!! I of course am online doing my part to spread awareness etc all month long :) I put a purple ribbon in my tree outside my house, and of course i painted my pumpkin last month for halloween purple as well. (picture in last post). and so far i havent had a seizure since Oct. 28th! this month is also the presidential election! my choice of vote for a 3rd party has changed – but i think it will come down to the last few moments when i will really decide, and i really think a lot of people are voting that way this year unfortunately because our candidates are not thee best of choices to have .. but it is what we have. this month is ALSO my birthday month! whoa nelly i am going to be thirty years old this year on the 29th! i am excited but ive been unhappy about it a few times as well. lol so as i say each year because i anticipate the day all month long i celebrate #29daysofCassie lmao! which has officially started now lol. we even have planned a casino trip in my honor coming up on the 17th with the friends & we are all staying at the hotel! should be fun! so this month is exciting in many ways! so far ive celebrated all saints day and all souls day with my class as we attended mass together :) today i enjoyed the day painting a lot as gifts for people (painting page to be added in December) while leon watched football, then tomorrow, i am going out to SOS for a new ID! hoping it comes in the mail before the casino trip!!!!
hmm where to start? well sunday me and my gma went to church, breakfast, checked out the new flag they put up in the New Baltimore Park, and then we headed out shopping for a little while having fun together :) love days like that with her! the week went as normal consisting of my weekly monday counceling sessions and my weekly tuesday night catechism etc but then WOW! without saying much there has been some drama/stress close by in my life which resulted in a lot of seizures! tuesday night seizure, wednesday seizures, thursday seizures, and a small seizure yesturday, friday! it was quite the hurdle of feeling like CRAP and sleeping etc. since i wasn’t doing so well i rested the whole week as much as i could, i think the only time i left the house was to go with leon yesturday to the doctors haha. today i haven’t had any seizure activity and the michigan game is on. so im about to sleep more as he watches it haha. and im pretty sure MORE football tomorrow i think but we might go over to derak and heathers, idk yet, depends on how i am feeling. then Monday is HALLOWEEEEEEEN!
since my last post we celebrated champ our oldest dog turning 11 years old!! crazy pup you can’t even tell he is that old because he has so much energy and spirit lol. we took him out for a walk and for some ice cream at DQ :) leon and i also have been helping my grandma get a lot of things done around her house, like putting in new appliances etc. yay for helping and yay for grandma days ♥
last saturday was Tommy’s (leons paintball buddy) wedding! we got all pretty and had a really good time enjoying and celebrating with them! followed by dinner and football on sunday haha! but in short i have been enjoying volunteering at catechism a lot this year. this month i really got to know them and moving forward with lessons has been a lot smoother etc. one of my students is a female but goes by he pronouns and dresses like a girl. intresting meeting someone at the age of 7 who is identifiing as a different sex than they were born. i am happy god put this little boy in my life :) tuesday i went out to lunch with emily from my high school committee team, we had a lot of fun sitting and gabbing the whole afternoon! this wednesday me and grandma kicked back and watched movies as the weather has been getting colder etc so we snuggled up together. at home leon and i turned the heat on officially! WINTER IS COMING! lol
USA! this year is an election year and the debates between trump and hillary have been going on… now I am not one to post, blog, or comment on anything political & I try to stay out of this on social media and I keep my feelings to myself; however I cant stay completely quiet any longer. We have one candidate running on a slogan “make america great again” and another saying that we are already “good” then we have the media slinging everything they can to fire us up and keep us on their agenda. Then we are joining in slamming each candidate on social media constantly and making arguments about what this one did is so bad/illegal while ignoring what bad/illegal things the other has done. What we are doing as Americans is we are dividing the lines even deeper so we have no hope of being “good” or “great again”. We chose these two individuals as our running mates by either voting for them in the primaries or not voting at all. So my advice is stop letting the media and the mud slinging impact your decision start finding a way to make a difference in your daily life and the life’s of those around you. America was built on the shoulders of leaders not followers, get out there and lead and stop following this crap like mindless cattle. If we all just do that then America will not only be good it will be great. Neither candidate nor Media Outlet has an agenda to unite us as Americans, everything about this race has done nothing but divide us more as a country. I have decided that i am going to use my vote next month not for either candidate but for a third party nomination vote. I dont want to one day look back and be asked by my children who i voted for and tell them i did not vote as well as be a part of this “mess”.
Other than political bullshit I am doing MUCH BETTER! my last post was so sad, but i think thats what blogging is for, to help me get things out, look back, review, move forward and live life in #gratitude ♥ so happy to have cassiedotcom.com :) lol of course. with each passing year i am growing. and i feel it, i know it. in 2012 i wanted to give up and entered myself into a phyciatric (sp?) hospital, and since then i have only been climbing the stairs of greatness. i am super proud of myself. sometimes you feel like you are the only one having a hard time, but we all are. we are constant works in progress, preparing ourselves for eternity in the kingdom of God! Amen! I had counseling last night and she was so reassuring of my wednesday cry fest, how all the feelings i was having i turned each of them around into i feel icky about this, so im going to fix it this way! yay for therapy! lol. so health wise i am back to me and working on my fabulousness with THREE DAYS SEIZURE free under my belt! because EVERY victory matters!
HELLO EMOTIONAL CASSIE~! i haven’t been depressed or had a crying over nothing day in sooooooo long so it really caught me off guard this past week. since my friend passing away from SUDEP and her sister deleting her fb page (which im not a fan of) then me having a major seizure and being in the hospital … i have been really up and down i suppose. most days i like to consider myself to be positive as i am living my life in gratitude but feeling down has really crept up on me. of course having the coping tools from couceling has been extremely helpful! okay lets re-cap what happened. i haven’t been to counceling for two weeks (going tomorrow and cannot wait to unload) and have been sleeping A LOT so i feel like ive been falling back into my bad pattern which is NOT helpful for the brain. on tuesday was my second day of catechism, which i enjoyed my 1.5hr with my student and had a lot of fun, smiles the whole time. but on wednesday i woke up just on the WRONG SIDE of the bed or something immediatly sad and crying all by myself. talked to grandma, my dad, tried to spend some time out in nature to make myself feel better but i would cry over the silliest things (now that i think about it all) and was feeling bad about everything and nothing all at the same time. THEN the church called me and needed me to sub for their first grade class. i felt obligated and said yes when really the way i was feeling i should have said no. that night i took on 15 first graders and OH MY LANTA was it something i was no mentally ready for. i left there wanting to cry more lol. but i made it. once i was home leon made everything better, of course because he is my ROCK. thursday we went to the gym but didnt go again since because i had another seizure saturday morning :( and then slept most of today away. hopefully this week will be A LOT BETTER!!!!
WHOA have things been crazy this past week! last tuesday i had catechism class (as i posted about) and the day went by fine and i came home and leon bought pizza then we hung out for a bit and went to bed. i suppose some time in the middle of the night i got up sleep walking or something and had a seizure, falling and hitting my head on our entertainment center! THANKFULLY leon woke up and heard the noise and came to care for me. i guess it took him a while to get me to the hospital but eventually he got me there around 4am and they checked me over for my skull and head injuries etc because i hit my head. they had me stay at the hospital, and even though leon took work off for wednesday because of all of it, he had not gotten any sleep all night so he called my mom and grandma and went home for some sleep. i woke up the next day with them by my side and a text from leon that made me very emotional because of how much he goes through. he is my rock! after some time i was feeling better and they let me go home later wednesday night. even though they let me go home i was still kinda loopy and groggy for a few days and needed lots of sleep so thats what i did. thursday leon had to work so i went over my grandma’s and slept there and she made dinner for me and leon because she is a sweetheart <3 she is my best friend i love her so much!!!
Everything else has been so hazy and i dont remember some days. i know we went out to breakfast one day with leons dad, and grocery shopping one day lol but mostly ive been sleeping a lot. i doooooo remember yesturday (saturday) as we stayed home again for some football but leon had the guys over and i had my second pearl party online! i ended up getting my goal for my free setting. SO i ended up opening a SECOND oyster! the first oyster i opened was a dark and the second was a pretty pink ♥ both 7.5 in size. i am having the dark in a bracelet and the pink in a ring :) yay lol so we shall see when they come.
saturday was the pearl party i hosted that i was talking about in my other post :) the vantel pearl constultant did a live feed video, there was other oyster openings with people who opened some pearls and i opened my free oyster as well and got a DARK PEARL. of course that is what everyone wants, not the classic white lol. it’s like pearl gambling haha. SO my pearl is a dark blushish with some purple in it maybe? i have these pictures of the video feed from the pearl party but cannot WAIT to get it in person. the pearl was large in size too at 7.5! lol oh my the new things i get excited about at age 29! almost embaressing haha. okay sooooo for the party i didn’t reach my goal all the way for my free setting for the pearl so i am having ANOTHER free party on October 1st and then i should reach my goal ♥
also all day on saturday me and leon had a slow day of relaxing as he watched football (blah) – so at one point i went next door to see leons dad (Big Leon) and he looked super tired, pretty much napping… so i decided to take Abby over our house and have us watch her as she was kinda all alone over there (her mom and nana were out). Abby was EXTREMELY unhappy that i took her away from her papa (she doesn’t come over as much anymore and is with only the three of them) so she cried —> and cried, and cried, and cried HARD! she screamed for her papa, and toys, and drink, and pretty much anything she could think of at her house to get us to take her back home because she didn’t want to be with us. she cried for about 20 mins before crying herself to sleep on the floor. she napped for a half hour, then woke up and was totally okay lol. i played with her, got her some food, and we had a good time coloring, stickers, polly pockets, & watching a barbie movie etc until her mom came home for the night.
i started catechism tonight and all went good. i was much more prepared this year and comfortable with everything knowing the routine etc, so my anxiety was much lower than last year. i met two of my students and we had fun getting to know eachother and i was happy to find out they are two kids who knew their prayers, went to church etc so their parents are going to be very helpful in getting them through this year with me. :) oh and yesturday was the presidental debates… trump vs. hillary. smh.